This THIS thing!!!!!

 It’s miiiiiiind bending literalllly the way writing out things actually brings back things that you thought you didn’t even remember!!

You did have one even before him back then you didn’t know it was panic attack!!!!!

When on the phone that guy that you were supposed to marry starts to yell at you for something you don’t remember on your way to the gym like it was something bout not talking to anybody at the gym or something ur was!!!!

And you reach the gym u still were ok get changed and all and just bout to get on treadmill and you start to feeel breathe less and go towards a wall and start to cry like how it happens and the way he comes over standing that close to you with his face closest to yours and asks you to take deep breaths instead of crying out…….asks you to take a hold on yourself and focus on breathing and you look at him and him showing you how to breath in and out and you just stop crying looking in his eyes and the way he smiles and starts to talk bout this lucky ali track gori Teri aankheij and tells you that song is you right now……

The simplicity of him handling that situation of yours like that effortlessly being the Himmagic that he was just like that makes that disappear and then asks you to sit down on the floor and sits with you whilst the others still looking at you both sitting on the floor against the walls……and asks you what caused it who caused it and you couldn’t say a word just looking at him the waaaaaaay he was handling you…..never felt that before!!!!!

Not even you mom used to do that she would just hold you tighter hoping it goes away but that only used to make it worse with the chest congestion in that moment……the eaaaaay he lets you be and was with you in that moment makes it disappear that beauuuutifully!!!!!

And also was another thing of being simply being in awe of him completely he literally used to make you go awwwwwweeeeee inside everytime you saw him!!!!!

It didn’t change not even the slightest from that moment to this very moment of any story of his still makes you go that way!!!!!!!!!!