One word!!!!

 Soooo yaaahhhh!!!!

Back to mahashivratri day!!!!

By the end of the day breaking the fast usual seeing him on fone one of his recent pics from that chat as your favourite image see that and after your mom comes over at the table having custard…..

And just then with those yaha waha ka topic you knew she was bout to ask something and she did , does he even remember you!!

And there was custard still in your mouth and you struggled to gulp it down……and that’s whenthe video call from your model friend and you just answer away with her talking bout the event she was attending to of Shivratri and asksijg you if you wanted to come along and neither to her or your mom you could reply a word back with that one question…

She finally gets off and heads to over to the tv side of the house and you have that conversation with the friend hang up post!!

Go to your mom and just hug her telling her pls don’t ask me questions I don’t have answers for!!

She holds you back places her hand on the head and wishes you the most beautiful thing ever!!!!!!

Had to do with him again don’t wanna write it out but the way it put a smile on your face……

But that question still lingered through n through ever since then…….

Nothing at all bout you related even far off bout you in real it’s been his dreams all the way all these years till that one story post of his on 26th October post covid when he mentions bout being at gvk and feels like a decade something and that made you feel your presence there to that Versova story of his but after that it’s never been!!!!!!

Or for that matter this thing bout knowing someone deep knowing if he had to if he did really for real there was nothing in the world that could hold him back from doing what he wanted from loving who he wanted to from showing his love the way he wanted to like he would just do it…

Cause that’s how he has been!!!!!!

It’s that core of him that knows no other way if he really wants to do something he just would…

It’s left that weird void in you it’s strange it’s weird the way it’s making you wonder bout things suddenly!!!!!!

How do you feeel that much of him and then there’s nothing in real how could it just be your mind or your dream without him wanting you for real and if he did why isn’t it for real mein too…