Himviiiiiiiiiibed!!!!!!

 This mind this mooood right now even writing it out now like you wish you could just be somewhere on your own away from everything else play all his music and just be feeeeeling living him away on your mind!!!!!!

Like it’s even showing on your face in your eyes today this Himvibed today start already!!!!!!!!!!!

Like today tho it was heights!!!!!!!

When you wake up with the cutest dream possible living his kid version with your own kid version could be cause of too much Rick n morty till you fall asleep lately!!

There was him in his kid version playing with some gun at a distance and in this he was wearing a navy again collared r shirt with shortest white chaddis and playing with the gun and you go running to him wearing some white frock which you do ask your mom soon as you are up which was your fav dress bachpan mein and she says anything white you loved…..

And that andar wali khushiii soon as she says it knowing you just wokeup to living that version of you with him…

Aooooo yaaaaah as you go running to him he without turning around just holds your hand takes you to some few steps ahead ther was this big giant man standing there and as you try to step back the waaaaaay he holds onto your hand tightest turns around and there he was exactly like his bachpan version looking his adooooooooooorabke best ayyyaaaaaaaaaa suchaaaaaaaaaa doll he looked like bachpan mein too……and smiles that teeethy smile of his and just takes you forward asking you to walk along with him…..you were few steps ahead and then before you make sense there was some water over you from up and he stands behind saying it didn’t fall on him…

And you ask him but kyaaa tha ye and he in that kid adoooorable tone of his voice just like he used to talk to lucky in same tone and sometimes with you too pouting his lips away says it was growth water…and jumps in a way mad at why it didn’t fall on him and you take some off you and try to rub it over his hands and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he looks down at your hands rubbing it over his arms and that very same second the visual goes to in his car him touching your arms freshly waxed arms he would call it…the way he would always swipe one finger across your arm just looking at the arm with that one smile on him………it was beauuuuuuuuuutiful charlie the way that moemnt from this moemnt seamless it felt like you don’t know why what it even meant but never had this kind of him moemnt before!!!!!!!! Even writing it now this feeeeeeel of him!!!!!!!

It was only when you wake up do you realise no wonder elder than him so that was the logic…….

To your mom telling you bout the white frock love bachpan mein too!!!!!!

And you just had to get in the stretch before as it helps in body recovery faster before and after workout stretch his logic which you tried today before stretch also cause the mind actually just wanted to feeeel him right from the start itself…

Get in the workout with the chilarest tracks to this one song in the badahah list which wasn’t even badshah track and the second it plays you were doing lunges with weights in your hand and the waaaaay it makes you stop right there close your eyes and tat very moment from opera with this very same song playing in his car rushes through you keep the weights down…..head to the phone to check which one it was and fashion it was back then it used to play a lot on tv too…..

This very moment start of the track the waaaaaaay he would always stop the car look at you for a moment play some track still looking you in the eye and that one smile and then come over to your side……..and even whilst you were stil saying something bout him playing a Hindi track for the first time there he just goes on with the kiss and then moved away Annd tells you ever since he heard this track a day before he had been wanting to live that sound with you at opera…….and goes on with it!!!!!

The song was done something else plays and he stops in between moves a lil away plays the track again……

It was that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him to just seeee him live him that way live that love of his that way ayyyaaaaaaaaa this heart even right now…….

Like you couldn’t finish the set even and fataaak se move to the himversions……

And that one move with side stretch in one L angle and that feeeeeeel of his hand holding your face with just one hand and then slowly slipping over to the neck and the waaaaaaaay it makes you move….which also was always the first thing he would do hold your one side of the face with one hand from under the ear and just look you in the eye and slowly slip it over the neck……..

It was that beauuuuuuuuutifulku strong today that very same exact feeeeeeel of him the same way like he used to!!!!!!

And the more you are writing now this rushhhhhhhh and the way it again is making you geeel right now!!!!!!

How much missing is too much missing!!!!!!!!!!