Days!!!!!!

 It’s the mahashivratri!!!!!

Days on the calendar!!!!!

The memories moments of him it brings along and again something can never get used to!!

Another year…

This year however it’s supposed to be just fasting his style no water living him in moments through the day breaking the fast his style fruit custard and no salt after too but thewaaaaaay this morning just started…….

All of night last night the waaaaaaaaay he came ayyyyaaaaaAaaa how can you have this state of you on a divine day as this one…….mind you turned on on a day like this!!!!!!

Cause the waaaaaaaaaaaaay you’ve lived smelled felt touched him in frames literally like it was so intense that THAT close to him like you could feeeel the texture of his soft white shirt his black denim against your feet like you could literally feeeeeeeeeel every bit of him in that zooooomed up mode in your mind…

It’s like your were living him touching him feeeeeling him in 3D mode literally cause it was that intense…….

Beauuuuuutifully intense the waaaaaaaaay he was making you feeeeel making you hold him wanting you to hold him do things it was all that close that zoooomedup like literally felt him closest CLOSEST ever!!!!!!!!

To waking up still that high on him mind all of you inside outside this one Himmode it’s set tuned on…

You were supposed to keep your mind on Bhakti mode today but the waaaaaay it switched on to your fav channel ever Himtv I say and HOW!!!!!!!!!

Like mind keeps playing him on loooop from last night that waking up every single time from a dream like that one is the most difficult…the body refuses that feeeel of being just on your own without that sense of him his body closer!!

Something’s I swear!!!!!!!

A himcoming like this one too of all days, today…!