Visuals!!!!!

 There have been a zillion dreams of his in that black shirt and the waaaaaaaaays every single time it did leave you that beauuutifully restless ki you couldn’t even focus at work and mostly has been a struggle of few mins and dumma at work and head out just to be on your own to feel him more like you need that head space just for him just and just for him to let yourself feeel him away the most and completely…

Without having to think or work at something else!!

And this one dream today as much as it has that rush of him for you missing you in the waaaay he moves around and over ther was that constant wish that one longing feeling his burgundy shirt away like that inside wish why didn’t he wear the black one …….even as he was living moments with you you constantly touch and feel his burgundy shirt with that one thought one wish of why didn’t he the black one instead…

From that to actually seeing him in that black shirt today itself exactly how he used to wear it in the dreams with neck wide open to actually see him in that today that too it was that wish of your hand coming true and HOW!!!!!!

Like there was that bad of a need in your hands wishing away it was him in black shirt to actually see him for real in that you have no idea what all feeeeeels the hand has felt today charlie….

Like not sure if it’s even normal to feel away that way but like for few mins zoooomed in tripping on him and allllllllll feeeeeeels the hand was feeelinf away I swear!!!!!

Like you try and keep your mind sober decent types but the only man ever in your life it has come out and with has been him ab whoooo bhi nai Karu tho Kaise hotA!!!!!!

U were out with your mom for some work thing then temple then early dinner plan day it was supposed to be…

And your mom gives you her phone to check some number of her brother message and you instead skip that and fataaaak se head over to him and there he was in that black shirt with family and your mind wooooooosh bolke rest everything else goes blur…like it’s just him the mind thinking feeling seeing breathing him away literally!!!!!!

Cause it wasn’t just any shirt charlie it’s the one howwwwwwwww and waaaaaays you lived him with which you still haven’t yet for real too……

And to finally see him in that exact same one same style of his was EVERYTHING!!!!!!!

U give her phone back and she keeps asking you something and you just couldn’t hear or give it a thought bout it……tell her will skip work instead and just finish the fabric thing and then to temple…….but even in fabrics the waaaaay your eyes were glued onto the black fabric roll and as you look at yourself in the reflection behind there was this constant smile on you and face red!!!!!

Immmeeediately put the mask on and plug in the music play high by stepen like it’s your complete him track playing loudest it just gives the feeeeeels!!!!!

Where all the mind kept reliving like all those visuals of him in your room on the pillow against the wall on your couch on the floor on the carpet like every dream possible in that one beauuuuuty of his shirt kept rushing through you like it’s you alone knows howwwwwwwwwwew you struggled to keep a straight face on and act normal like you were normal and not living a gorgeousssssssssly sexy storm on the inside…