HOWWWWEEEEEE!!!!!!!

 How howwwwwweeeeeee do you even tame this mind down nowwwwww!!!!!!!!

There were ways specific ways he would say certain things and howeeeeee you loooved it and used to find it that sexy like random most things out of nowhere to the waaaays he wpuld walk towards you like from a distance be it at some store and walking back to you and you just watch him and that one looook in his eye and he would suddenly smile that waaaay just knowing knowing how you actually found him sexy in that moment and he instantly realizes it and has that smile on him fataaaak se……

Second back in the car he would chummi your face away no matter where you were at sealing the moemnt the vibe away in that very moment……

To the same ditto waaaaay he comes this morning before moments and the waaaaay it just stayed with you even after the waking up like you couldn’t get your mind off it that one black shirt on him his style of wearing the shirt his eyes that beautifully sleepy and high that one smile on him and the way from walking slow towards you to suddenly holding all of you away in that rush where all could you see was his neck like you keep trying to push him back a lil just to live him in that moment to live his facial details but the waaaay he pushes himself more on you not letting you see his face……u write something and this sudden rush of goosebumps now even reliving that very moment…

Try hard charlie I swear I try hard to keep your mind low to keep the missing normal but that stays that way is entirely on him in what he wears and comes it’s like the others you just miss him through the day that’s your usual way now but when he comes in this one shirt he is all different it’s that version of him that used to life you up like he is all there all of him in the wholest way possible and HOWEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

And that him gets that difficult to tame your mind down like you feel that version of you that difficult to go bout the day with a normal face where your mind is on literal fire!!!!!!!!

It’s glimpses of him sound of him anything him and the waaaaaaay it transforms your mind away!!!!

Today just wasn’t feeling it to tame it down to just come out with a normal face on and you just be listening to music away and still feeeeeeling that sense of him over the pillow cause there’s always that faint scent of him still there much after waking up too and you just be with it…

Once it was time to come out still doesn’t happen like all you could see was him walking towards you and look out and it’s been raining that meeeed to feeeel him more live him more feeel that way more and you get in the workout……

And post this one track madness evil madness it purely is whoeweeeeeeee the waaaaaaays it can elevate your mind high on missing someone is beyoooooooooond!!!!!!

Like even doing himversions feeeeeeling him along that strongly against your skin with this track playing loudest possible felt that sexy from within after yeaaaaaaaaaars!!!!!!!

It was like a solo performer vibe slow dancing away to him with him in some movements……

It was pure pure pure madness I say!!!!!!

Some tracks the sound the beat the way beat grows the missing grows that feeeeeeeel of him that walk of his on loop as you move with the track it was MADNESS!!!!!!!!

This mind today this missing today I say!!!!!!!!

Kyaaaaaaaaaa hotaaaaaaaa ki!!!!!!!!!

Kyaaaaaa kyaaaaaaaaaa hooo jataaaaa ki all it takes is that one face in the world and this you you become…

Like this sudden realisation you are a woman out of nowhere…!