Waking ups!!

 Some dreams are just beyoooooooond!!!!!!!!

Like you go to sleep with a hazy disturbed state of mind and live him be loved by him this way and love him away that THAT MUCH!!!!!!!!!

Like when you’ve lived a moment a feeling for that long on a loop you wake up that bad confused looking for him…cause in that moment living him loving him it all felt that real witb him talking sound of his voice every second of the dream every second of living him in the dream the way it all felt that real that you wake up wondering what just happened where did he suddenly go!!!!!!

Skip the day at work and just be in that confused even more lost state of mind woke up pretty late though and it starts to drizzle and that need that rush to feel him again…

Get on with the workout with that wait on the inside like you’ve been lately skipping the post stretch moments just so you can somehow some way get a hold on yourself and your mind more importantly!!!!!!

Aaj nai hua like you just had to feel him again…….

And the waaaaaaaaays some sounds bring him along like first few attempts at finding some track go in vain and then this one comes along with that same feeeeeel of his hand over yours his whispers against your cheek feeling his face his forehead nose pouty lip away like your mind starts to wander those very moemnts from the morning agaaaaaain for the zilluonth time when he comes in that same sexy shirt of his how you donno why you donno like he keeps coming in that same black softest skin like cotton shirt his usual style buttons up and the second you see him in that that one smile of his ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa meraaaa poooota ka poooora evrythung on the inside outside he is I swear!!!!!!

Like in that moment he that well knew how much you loooooved him in that same thing!!!!!!!!

Like as you move through the movements today to that sound your mind eyes shut wandering through those very spaces of him…

To this one moment when you live a visual of a wild grass ground him laying over with brush of wind around moving the grass the sound of the grass moving brushing against his face and you hold one fern of it away just so you could live him clearly and the way he pulls you closer to him and you lose your balance fall to the side of your face with a red blob now on the cheek!!!!!

U were practically literallllly day dreaming away in your waking state and felt him in a way you have never before!!!!!!!

Cause in your very waking state it felt that REAL like he actually pulled you closer felt his hand pulling your wrist away even writing it now absolute madness I say!!!!!!!

How do ou even make sense with moments like these and the reality line running on the side of this all!!!!!!!