HIM!!!!!

 When a missing like that one literally not just soaks you away but drowns you in it and HOW!!!!!!

All through those stretches of the road that THAT much him like he was there all through all those moments and drives with him living him away loving every detail every version of him away and the waaaaaays it all comes back to you yesterday…

Another one of those moments recalls that makes you re realise why it’s always been him why you couldn’t move on or away!!

Something’s nai charlie sort of get tied up inside you like a knot that you can’t untie or unfold or take it out of you like that one strong bond inside of you that’s connected and now a part of you Him to you is that and much more…

Like you come back home and that lost cause you badly wanted to write out also why you skipped the beer too but nai hua cause it was tooooo much missing suddenly with visuals of his places now!!!!!!

To this morning wake up more him again the waaaaaays he comes like magic exactly loving you away the parts of you that you missed him with allowing you to love him away again exactly the parts of his that you missed that much!!

To this need for more of him and you workout with still confused hazy state of mind and post workout stretches looking for the track that had him feels and this new find doing anulomvilom and suddenly like he had his arms over your shoulder looking at you had your eyes shut but like you could visualize him doing that zillion times back then at his place when he just wanted to touch you somehow anyway around his family and that was only way he could which he would again tell you later…like just come beside had his elbow over your shoulder and that one look in your eye followed by that one smile ayyyaaaaaaaaaa that one smile and everytime he would smile that one specific way that one rush in you to jump and chummi eat his face away and he would sense that just by you looking at him and then would chuckle away it was your one lil mush conversation with him without words as and when he would have his arm that way over your shoulder like he would exaaaactly know what and how his moves and smiles used to make you feel away!!!!!

Something’s you write and hold back from writing cause the waaaay it’s making you feel now again what do you do with this much missing even!!!!!!

How do you digest soak hide it all away and where!!!!!!!!

Heart, love, need to come with switches nai if one goes off for the other the other automatically needs to go off too!!

Mind this THIS high on him a missing again like never before!!!!!!!!!!