It’s this one strong dream of his that you wake up with this morning!!!!!
Another one of those that leaves your hope high like soon as you are up no matter what you are doing having coffee eating breakfast no matter what you keep shutting your eyes to relive that feeeeeel sense visual of him over n over again…….it’s the thing bout missing charlie when you find even a lilst feeeel of their presence in some way even be it in a dream bhi you hold onto it and keep playing it on loop in your mind as it makes you feel closer to them…
It’s weird nai beautifully crazy too when you think of it you change your complete morning routine complete routine for that matter hoping you get a hold on yourself try and not write as much just so you can mellow down the missing a lil hoping your mind feels less lost and then this beauty of his dreams……..
The waaaaaay he feels that closest in the dream wanting you to be close to him telling you he missed you making you feel he still loves you and then waking up to the same reality for over years now is what that’s getting worse!!!!!!
And to live a dream that strong one to feel live him that way and then post shower notice the color on you exactly on the same place on you you just don’t understand!!!!
Logic could be a summer rash but then to have it over on the same exact spot on you he was at from the dream not sure if this is not magic what else could be!!
To planning to clear the closet sort it a lil and the view every single time the first section of his stuff your lil treasure chest of all things him including the soft toy he did get for you peeping out of it!!!!!
Like a view like this every morning to wake up and see and that level of THAT much it always fills you up with is beyond words and skip the clearing it out and accept and continue to be the mess that you are…
Trying to sleep now sometime back and you just couldn’t get off to apply some lavender essence and that need to see it again on you now sometime back the waaaaaaaay it takes you back to all those times of seeing his actual color of love on you and the waaaaay it always made you the happiest HAPPIEST you’d ever been…
Know shouldn’t be posting and then there’s this need to save it here wanting to read this feeeel live this feeeeel of magic again and relive him from that exact same moment again as and when you read this again……
Something’s how only!!!!!!!!
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