Sound of Him!!

It’s been too much on mind too much missing too much realisation and too many dreams and this moment one moemnt!!!!!

Yesterday skipping lunch cause of work and then post lunch that need to just be away and head to concu order the current summer fav smoothie bowl and get on working on designs with ears wrapped in his music…and the order comes you take out the ear plugs for a second and that one sound of the name kittuuuuuu plssssss!!!!!!!!

I swear anything at all with that tiniest hint of him anything him and the waaaaaaaaaaaaays it makes you feel is beyond!!!!!!

Look to the side where the sound came from and there was this mom with a very tiny baby and a lil elder kid tho with the care taker but still was struggling to handle the older one and as you look at that fellow collared white t shirt exactly like his and yellow chaddis but white shoes again one turn of the kid and the waaaaay the kid smiiiiiles away at you…….comes running to you literally and the first thing you ask ofc your name is kittu and just nods away leaning over your leg……

The mom gets off apologising to you and takes the kid away and trying struggling to make kittu eat something off the dabba as was demanding something off the menu…

And keeps turning and looking at you and you ask the mom if you could help her to try to feed the kid and her asking if it’s okay with you all and in your heart ofc it’s kittuuuu after all….

Take the dabba ask the kittu to come and surprisingly this kittu did come……happily who bhi!!!!

Again same position leans over your leg smiles away and also more surprisingly happily eats it in first spoon itself without saying a no……I swear charlie to see the kid in that collared t shirt and white shoes ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ek meraa kittuuuuuu how only prolly the adoooooooooooooorablest in the world ever be it his kid phase or now ayyyaaaaaaaaaa he is a walking talking breathing form of your actual whole poooora heart I say!!!!!!

Like those few mins kittu asking your name and stuff and what you do and happily standing away that way was beauty in randomness I say!!!!!!

Like you forget to eat your own food cause all you could see was him in that robe and small cap of his childhood him in school uniform as a kid ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa heights of cuteness I say!!!!!!!

Once done the mom insists on gifting you a brownie pack and you refuse saying it’s kittu after all and you were more than happy to help as it’s your most fav name in the world…she sits down at your table instead hoping for some more conversation on that doesn’t happen though cause it was just the lil one that brings back those glimpses of your most loved kittuuuu in the world!!!!!!

Some moments and the waaaaaaaaaaay they can make you feeeel is beyond happiness the waaaaay all those flashes of him sounds of him of being careful with kids these days as you were working at the school back then…

To those chats rewinds of being saying things being around and then…….

It was all a mixed feeeeel but toooooooo many feeeeels of him suddenly rushing through you!!!!!!

And yesterday when you come back home with that incident at the mall too the sound of him constant in your head and you just had to head out for a run as you have switched to evening runs or walks around apartment…….

And post that need to finally feeeeeeel that feeeeelif of himversions!!!!!!

And the waaaaaaaaaaaaay all over again feeling his touch across you that sense of him that strongly still doesn’t make sense!!!!!!!

This morning again no dream and this feeeeeel again of missing out on seeing him!!!!!