Highs n lowwes!!!!!

 It’s this mixed vibe days you are livin lately!!!!!

Go out find him in places moments and sounds and that one level of khushiii it lands you in is beyoooooond!!!!

Coming home that one falllll that one loweewwwwwe it hits is also beyond!!

Yesterday post work the model friend asks to meet somewhere and from there to the plan of seeing this new bistro place for fathers thing!!!!!!

The vibe the place and the first time that one feeeeeeeeeel to be with him there cause the second you enter the place they were playing bohmer and the likes of him……order the mildest drink possible like literally ask for what’s the mdest cause you didn’t want to himtalk out when high in a public space and this one time some conversation and this one guy passes by and the track playing hey ya over his phone showing it to his friend asking you remember this track……and the sound of that track and that one stronggggggg pull of Him and you literally had to stop the guy asking which one it was and stops by to show had to be one of His moemnts!!!!!!!

It was from the movie you’d seen with him in the theatre when you wrote last and delete it immediately cause don’t wanna kill this vibe of the morning like this one…

Ever since then one ear pug in and play that track on loop for a bit as she gets busy on some shootcall but that viiiiiiibe that feeeeeeel when you missed him the most the second you enter the place that one big wish to be there with him as you loved the music the space something bout the asthetics and then to find him in some sound was beyooooond!!!!!!

It’s that rush of him all through the evening to coming back home and the way it all starts to rush from the very start and that one missing mode lost mode it lands you in still thinking bout the wish of wanting to be there with him…

To playing his some artist tracks that you found your lil peace back again and sleep to it still browsing through the tracks…….

And this time tho it’s absolute absolute MADNESS when he comes the same exact way for 5 times in a row wearing the same sexyyyyyyyyeeee black sheeer softest shirt in the same ways of his missing, what’s even happening when switching sides to sleep to luterallly sniffing his scent away and the waaaaaay he pulls you to the wall and the saaaaame exaaaaaact feeeeel sound touch taste of him the exaaaaact same rush and the waaaaaay he keeps saying the same word over n over again as moves over you holding you don’t give up don’t give up and then just don’t pls dont it’s the word plus the seeeeexxxxxxxxxyyyyyyyyyyiest way he was saying it in that low tone of his holding you pulling you closer…….

It’s also what makes you miss him the most living his rush living his missing for you in that way and then to wake up still with this confusion you just donnoooo!!!!!!

This morning toooo you wake up with that dream rush of him and soon as the alarm goes off you still turn instead of getting off the bed and that scent of him again that you could still smell beside you and ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that very moment your heart I swear that one big jump it lived in that moment!!!!!!

And you wake up to see him and realise you were up finally but  still half asleep with that lil amount of sleep you managed!!!!!!

To see him in that same shirt then to see him that way then to sniff him that way then to touch him that way then to breathe him that way and then to wake up and not find him that way this mind right now too!!!!!!

It’s that need that urgency to get in the workout and then to live him more!!!!  

And then to live him again as you move move along with you again when you stop in between close your eyes for a bit and make another wish in that very moment this morning…….

I swear charlie the waaaaaaaays you can feeeeeeeel him move touch feeeeel you along as you move that in sync and aligned with you is something else only!!!!! 

This mind already THIS high on him!!!!!

And that too on a day with too much work to tackle in one day how only you are going to have a straight mind to think and follow work with this HIMHIGHD!!!!!!!