To live!!!!!!!

 This THIS BEAUUUUUUUTY!!!!!!!!

When you’ve been trying almost night trying to log back in and then just be and play his music away and when he comes like this ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this heart to live that rush of his for you and HOW!!!!!!!!!

Like how could he possibly miss you that much THAT MUCH and still not be!!!!!!!!

Something’s never make any sense especially after last night this morning actually the waaaaay he was saying things away holding you pulling you closer moments that sound of him to live that feeeeeeeel of him making you feeel live his love for you and then wake up still not find him the distance everything in the real world doesn’t make any sense…

Like you wake up real late post alarm and skip work cause was feeling the worst lost possible it’s him telling you things makes it al the more beauuuutofully worse hearing things after years in his exact tone of voice assuring you holding you and then to this…..

And you straight away get into strength training and this one track he shares introducing you world of nicolas and turns on his side of the mic on Skype where you could hear his side of music playing and this one starts off with drums and he leans a lil back adjusts the sleeves of his full sleeve tee and leans over to your side with that lookin his eyes it’s like every track he has ever shared over Skype comes with exact visual of his from that very moment….to you that moemnt of him playing that track on his side of the window was like drum rolls to his entry like your heart living that moment filmy absolute moment with people around playing drums as he makes his entry and you were smiling away in that very moment and he keeps raising his eyebrows asking you what ur mind was upto and you didn’t want to share the Bollywood moemnt of his entry happening on your mind cause he had mentioned not to talk anything love or mush and it was happening on that big scale on your mind there he comes bolke!!!!!

Visuals I swear charlie that loooooooooove to live the random most moments of him too like every track thus clear with a visual of his…and as you like his music he shared with you you ask which one was his side playing and he asks you to look for it and find it on your own it’s by the same artist…back then there was no Shazamming it away and today between the sets as this track plays that one visual of him leaning a lil back and then towards you closer to the screen and you appears along with the track…

Be it the visuals from his dream this morning the sound of his voice the sound of him breathing with that rush closer to your neck it’s this mind THIS mind you donno what to do bout!!

That level of Khushi as with next sets it’s all him there leaning closer with that one sexyyyyyyyyyyy amuptosomething face of his ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one BEAUTY I swear!!!!!!

To the himversions to feel him in your waking state LIKE THIS absolute magic or absolute madness I say!!!!!!

Moves across your back to that feeeeeel suddenly over and around your neck exactly the way he did come this morning in the dream too………

To just live this feeeeeeeeling also why you stop beech beech mein cause it takes your hopes high how high you just have no idea charlie…

To just watching this another beauty of him on you now when weeks back your mom insists on getting some other chain as that broke and you go to this jeweller asking if they could redo the same one with a tiny heart, where it broke and with smaller circles…

To get it yesterday wear it and this feeeeeeeeeeeel cause that moemnt truly had your heart cause the way he holds it trying to pull you closer in the dream with that same face and look in his eyes nodding away and to wake up and see the chain actually broken was almost living a real moemnt in the dream and waking after too!!!!!

That one link that one moemnt that made you believe it all away!!

Add heart cause it had his hand on it again somethings you write out what only why only how only I say!!