This missing!!!!!

 It’s missing him in random most of things lately like being some place standing in the que and looking to your side wishing he was there cause you had some track of his playing and trippin on him and you look to your side start to picture him there like all of this happening in your waking state is that beauuuutifully weird cause at the end of the day all these moments summed up making you re realise that’s how bad you miss him!!!!!

To somebody passing by and you just see the hands and it again has you lost in that very moment reliving his hands specially from those drives when he would hold you away making sure you don’t fall as you lay over his lap and with any speed breaker he would tighten his grip over you and you just be there sometimes living that beauuuuty of his hands or sometimes at that corner of opera just before turning to your spot to tease you he would stop steps ahead and you do his thing over his arm and he would fataaaak se accelerate to just be there…….

His hands a story of their own ayyaaaaaaaaa how you looooooved his hands too right and much before you knew it was love when he would show you the blisters at the gym and feel proud of it and commenting on the others who would gear all up to lift weights and felt it was too gayish to do that and soon you stopped wearing em too and did it his way and still do without the gloves on…it definitely has made your palms too a lil rigid like his used to be back then…it’s these lilst of things that bring him along charlie not just one specific thing or feeling and this one huge missssssseeeeeing it fills you up away with!!!!!!

His details off late like he is definitely coming more upclose in dreams where in the mornings it becomes all difficult for you to cope with the day cause when he comes like that all you see anywhere you see is just that beauuuuuuutifully him!!!!!!

To this moemnt sometime back when you finally sit down to watch pulp fiction and this dance sequence with Mia and his words comes along!!!!!

At his Dd space with him making you dance with him move you along with him and you keep telling him you are a Dharmender in dancing and he suddenly and that beauuuutifulky drops you on the floor asking you to dance now and you get off and do something and he that adoooooooorably chuckles over it and tells you it’s so Mia the way you are dancing and you say it’s Dharmender and he again gives you that look and asks if you had seen pulp fiction you would know who Mia was and you were actually dancing like her!!

Where again you think oh wow he liked it and he holds u again and starts to move and do the same step over again drop you and watch you look you in the eye as he lets you slip over the floor and then watch you just lay there lookin and lost in him…….that one moment those few mins still this beauuuutifullu clear cause it was magic charlie one of those moments that could’ve had a beautiful background score of it’s own gentle sexy too much love and everything more in those very few mins of him moving you dropping you to you just being there over the floor living that veauuuuty of him and him wanting to do that over n over again……

Where at one time you just hold him tight not wanting to move an inch away from his body and that one smileeeee something’s you write and relive and THIS feeeeeeeeeeeeeling!!!!!!!!nowwwwwwwwwew!!!!!!!!

Exaaaaactly what writing does to you this very thing one mkennt to another one and it’s as if though you are back in time in that very moment him holding you alsoooooo why you avoid writing somethjngs out!!!!!!!!!!