Suddenly alive!!!!!

 There’s this loud scream mode happening right now even as you write now how does he have this very impact on you right from the very start!!!!!!!

All these weeks now rather this one weird state of lostness like frame after frame everything sort of losing its meaning it’s very essence where the core of you was al shaken up with every dream you were waking up to wvey moment you were living away even in the post workout moments to still feeeeel him wasn’t even making any sense……it was ostness calling yourself a fool over n over again to still feel all that away like there’s all of you still living him and how and that very you post moments and dreams in that denial state….

Also why you stayed away from writing that state of mind cause you just didn’t want to hear yourself out in that state of mind…

It was difficult and HOW especially with morning dream hims waking up finding him again in moments pos my workout to random moments through the day giving you that sign away and you still nodding back to thinking it’s your mind like that one thing changed pretty much away the way you were looking at yourself your dreams and stuff…….

To this other day when you had to head to the mall in Kukatpally for your regular top up stuff and all through the route again this one bus blue jay way his music playing him that very morning like he was there with you in those mownwts all throug the jam same route you’ve experienced a zillion moments of magic of feeling him loving him the state of mind it zones you out in beyond logics!!!!!!!

Like THAT much him to this very Youday of magic of all magics I say!!!!!!!!

Ayyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one face can do away things to your mind the way no sight sound visual sense smell or anything can possibly do I saaaay!!!!!!!!!!!

This smile today just won’t subside and Howwwwwwww!!!!!!!