THIS mind!!!!!

I swear charlie never felt this much Him rush through you at once the way it is feeeelinf right now!!!!!!

His face his very expression in that moment as you save the wrappers the empty box away and the way he chuckles away that qdooooorably telling you to ye bhi le ye bhi le and keep it safe will check on it years after!!!!!

To trying on his glove his eye kul drop thing all of this and you had ab na jaa track on loop and in that very second it instead switches away to tumhe se lucky ali track…how did that happen you still got no clue……..

It’s this feeeewwwl charlie as you were reliving every memory with that specific item his script his handwriting his words like every lil detail of his flashing rushing through you to this track moments in love and the opera him rushing through you cause you’ve lived that THAT many verysions of him at opera to this very track playing most of the times…..

Like it was his ritual kinda thing he looooved playing this track soon as you are there and it’s that feeeeeel of being wrapped all wrapped with him as the track plays cause you remember living that beauuuuty of him to the sounds of this very track…….

To these things and then to relive every bit of him through n through it’s like when your mind gets foggy it’s these things that sort of reason out what you otherwise doubt or call it as madness when dreaming bout him….

It’s the way he still comes charlie it’s this very love of his and it’s not just you that has grown loving him it’s over the years his love too that you can feel in the dreams with every dream grows stronger and closer…

And then it all comes down to this absence of all this is still there then why this is something you can never make sense of!!!!!!