Sound of music..!

 This state of mind sounds visuals and the way your heart suddenly feels everything away waaaay too much!!!!!!

Smiling crying reliving And then laughing!!!!!!

These sounds feeeling that first time feeel of wanting to just look at someone and stay that way not wanting to look away look beyond…..for the first time liking then soon loving some smile so that much that just seeing it used to make you happy like never before….liking some face then soon loving every bit of that face every lilst detail looking for something every time finding something new some new expression some new grown some new version of smile and loving all of these finds……that first time shift in your heart shift in your mind that first time rush of a different feel that first time feeeling of feeling the safest you’ve ever felt in life that first time feeel that need to hide away in someone off and away from everything else……that first time need to be held to be touched kissed and more…….

That first time feeel of being taken care of protected adooooorably possessive screamed at laughed at loved by!!!!!!

That first time feeeel of how your heart felt home you had finally found your home the way every lil detail bout him was becoming your heart that first time feel of being wanted considered as mom that first time shift of being a mom wanting to love that way too….

Ur heart did live waaaay too many firsts nai it’s these things charlie the way they are all laced with these details of him and seeing them all now the way those very details are rushing through you right now……this mind is feeelinf weirdly beautiful!!!!!!

A missing like never before this very moment!!!!!!