Sounds of him…!

 It’s these moments when you feeel him this way be it this night or last night watching drive to and you pass out and live the very exact moment of him holding you and you keep saying it’s me it’s me holding me and he keeps repeating after you no howli it’s me holding you……and you actually wake up to check if he really was there cause he had repeated that many times that it again sounded that real like he was right behind you holding onto you….cause you could not just feel him but smell his prsence too that close to you!!!!

To this very moment and soon as you wake up had you talking to yourself why couldn’t you just be still here even after I woke up like you were still half asleep!!!!!

And that question still remains the same even as you write if you can feeel him all these ways why couldn’t it just be all for real too……….

Like not having to just live him with eyes shut but even with eyes wide open not having to face that humiliation everytime you still go on WhatsApp to see how much someone could feel that strongly to put off for all these years and never be okay with it……

To think of it now in reality it’s that small to just have the orsence on WhatsApp and yet that big of a deal to make you understand realise that’s how bad he wants you off…….

It’s these thoughts every single time you go on WhatsApp is like a reality check a breaking moemnt from all this that you feel away like two different worlds living in one life!!!!!!

It’s the waaaaaaay waaaaaays he wants you closer holding onto him in his life with eyes shut and sooon as you are up it’s another story……

This moment when you feeeel his hand over your neck your face comforting you with that restless of the temperature it’s like he was one with you in that moment the way it was calming you away so much so that you wanted to look him in the eye and feel the same and you open your eyes to the sound of his voice and like always had you looking for him in that noook of the couch too……..