Times!!!!

 Like ofcourse there are those times when you wish some moemnt that’ strongly to be real like waking up from some dream and the waaaaay he comes in that shirt living the moment away waking up in the morning wishing away for it for real like the post workout movements and wishing to live it for real with him like being in some place and wishing to be there with him for real some day like wanting to needing to love him a way like you never did never could before…..it’s these zillion things that rush through your mind wanting to live him that way wanting to live a moemnt that way wanting to sleep knowing he would still be there when you wake up too…

Not having to look for him soon as you are up and stil finding him there on your pillow still sleeping…..

Wanting to do that thing he had talked about wanting to be there at that place he had mentioned about like a zillion things wanting needing and yet there are moments and days like these like today like right now……

To still be able to feeeeel this living that one visual of him from the dream yesterday!!!!!!