Sound of times…!

 U may not see him live him on days when you want the most but the one time you are THAT sure to find him is when you are sick……and its no longer a fever dream anymore with scary giants along crossways walking but ever since him…its always been him in the most adooooooorable of ways when you are unwell!!

After dressing up clients for diwali and getting yours in red and yellow for diwali you fall sick bad flucking flu sick right a day before diwali…

The sound of crackers in the air and theres always His sound of voice that comes along talking bout his paaaadmini fartmini neighbour..his childlike adooorable excitement in his voice still this very clear!!!!!

Yesterday too first time skipping his fav gulab jamun away cause cold has been that baaaad!!!!

And it was more of that lostness cause getting red done was mainly because the only time he commented immediately with some dp change of yours on WhatsApp was with that some red outfit dp change at vishus place that he loved of yours…….and comments mostly for your hair in the pic!!!!

And this time too after years you wanted to wear a red with that hope n wish on mind but wasnt that much cause of the cold and also someway was……

It was a simple one with pooja and cracker watching the sky lit up that beauuuutifully and everytime you see the flowers up in the sky that one beauuuuuty of that feeeeeeel for him inside of you back then rushes through you…

How for the first and only time ever in life you had started to loooooooove somebodys presence that much that it made you want to see him that day that badly and he kept saying that day too over n over again and also why he keeps calling you throughout the day……to complaining bout how he wanted to wear a basic black kurta instead and asks you what do you think would it look nice on me and this when he was changing his pants cause he was that adooorably vocal bout getting one leg in and the other gets stuck and he struggles through it with those hammmi sounds of him……

That night too him texting you pretty late it was something bout the smoke in the air and you check it and that feeling for the first time in life in you how much you had loved talking to him the complete day the sound of his voice like him texting you that literally made you want to talk to him then and then realising you also were to get married and in that weird space of time he again texts you saying i know you are up razaakh can sense these things u just read…

And shares the entire scenario bout the surroundings bout what he had for dinner and how he still wanted to talk till he falls asleep with you……to that text being asking you to get ready for the gym as early as possible and he will pick you up…

By 8 the next morning you were ready and he literally textst you saying he was under your apartment after 5 mind or so……

The second you are down him standing outside his car on his side doesnt say a word but just that one smmiiiiiiiile on him and you that feeeeeeeeeeel to just see him had made you THAAAAAAAAAT happy!!!!!!!

The second you get in him still looking at you and that one nod of his and that prolly was the first time he doesnt speak a single word and just that face of him had said it all…….like you were that happpppy on the inside and there was that much happierness there all over on him!!!!!!

Where to where only it went!!!!!!!

Soooooooo yahhhh it was a pjs wali Diwali yesterday to that moment of falling asleep and then to live that hug of him that warmth of him that comfort of him as you had a high fever last night……

The waaaaaaaaaay that first moment of his scent and that first touch to the waaaaaaaaaaay he holds all of you away and like that feeeeeeeeeel of being wrapped completely with all of Him and just Him!!!!!!!!!!

His face on your shoulder his daaaaaadi against your skin the waaaaaaaaaays it was giving you mixed feeeeeels like wanting to chummi eat him up also and wanting to just stay that way also the waaaaaay he rubs himself against you moves comforting you even writing it now!!!!!!

Like you don’t visually live him but all of you felt all of him away lived all of him away and HOWWWEEEE with the sound of him……

All day yesterday this one sound push playing it has that vibe of those days somehow strangely like yesterday it made you feel him closely from that day live him closely like it all was just about yestersay and not 15 years back…

Whowwwww saying somethings loud out hits you VERY differently…!