THIS time!!!!

 Its always this time of the day…..

Back home showered had food now its just you his music playing something random on tv u checking on the other reel edits and this state of mind…

Like from the morning hiiighs of him to this misssing lowwwww at this hour now…

This beauty of this month every single year like you literally start to live 2009 during this month……like every morning theres that viiiibe of him coming over to pick you up to this hour of the night on calls with him till morning hour…….

Nothing to do back then no work nothing at all…….

Literally just Him….

Sometimes you often wonder it was all him with nothing else to do but that one thing years after hasnt changed a bit even with a zillion work things to do…….that beauty of him still the same or maybe even more now…

Having literally grown in love with Him…

Like everyday no matter how tired hectic it gets its always this time of your day with his music playing slow and him rushing through you…but this one month always ALWAYS feeels different…

Like any moment he might call like any moment he might come over to see you still sleepy like by morning he would be there to pick you up and head to the gym together!!

Somethimgs nai!!!!!!!!!!!

Like that THAT used to living him, to this!!!!!

This beauty of truly loving someone and nothing possibly can change that… if youve truly felt it lived it LOVED IT!!!!!!

This another thing you come across today in some track at cafe bout second options and back then his sister too once did ask you bout it whats your backup plan and you just look at her blank cause you just didnt get the meaning of it and she asks again bhayya nai tho whats ur second option we must always have one…….and you still didnt understand the logic of it!!!!!!

Years after you still havent, today thinking bout it you still havent!!!!!

And this another something you read in some book if you have a second option on hand or on mind that itself means you were never in love with the first or current one…

Its never been anything anybody else but Him…not something you decided or got fixated with, its just something that in someway did become you…

Like to love him its not just bout loving someone its to love Him…be loved by Him!!!!!!

Its always been that way like that one face you wanna hold kiss touch feeeel live looooooove like that one human you feeeeel is your home….not just in your head but the waaaaaay even the slighest thought of them makes you feel on the inside, that sense of belonging…

Like you know how your heart feeels eyes feeeel your soul feeeels its the tip of your fingers that know its the lilst trace of your mind that feeels that lives looooves that one trace of human like no other!!!!!!!

To just know…!

Its Him!!!!!!!!!