Him magic…

 Today a good workout start the main reason was to feel him away with no him this morning and that wait inside but soon as you lay there post workout that weird mind hits back in and you just lay there focus on breathing with track shifts hoping you could get back to the moves and some point feel him these flashes of him with maybe this is the reality sinking in finally after all these years which you are unable to take it all in at one go…

And you are doing your best skipping workout only most times cause you know there’s that biiiiiiig need post workouts to feel a moment of him and you are trying doing your best to hold yourself from that hoping the missing gets better hoping this state of mind heals and gets back to normalcy at some point…

But honestly charlie kitttaaaaaaaaaa karlu nai horaa like this moemnt you write karlu and somehow for weirdest reason beautifully it auto switches to karely!!!!!!

What do you even call moments like these!!!!!

To being out for some work and one guy passing by wears a similar grey and black birthday shirt of His from back then and the way that person suddenly transforms into Him standing there looking at you smiiiiiiling that amworkingmymagiconyou and you damnhellforsureknowthat kinda vibe and you in that jam ask sudhakar to slow down and live that moment live him that whole fully!!!!!!

Like if that wasn’t enough the very next turn a min away some guy speeds ahead on a bike wearing his khaki jacket from Bangalore coming back night with hair overgrown and with your car honk turns around to see and there was him instead with his beauuuuuuuuuuutifulu over grown daaadi smiiiiiiiiling that almsot high smuleeeeeee of his cause he did smoke his psybeedi wit beer on his way to your place cause you could taste all of them in one go and the second you tell him bout it he chuckles away saying taste again and aur Bol what did I eat too!!!!!!

It’s like suddenly all those moments from that very ceryyyy most specialest late night meet rushes through you!!!!!!

That meet of him coming to see you soon back from Bangalore was another one of the most elspeciap ones it had everything that rush of missing that first time feeeeeeling him that way living looooving him that way……to him just living your presence all of you and you doing the same and just feeeeeling that happy all over again the way he adds it was like the first time he was seeing you cause back then there was no video call Skype picture sharing nothing at all just seeing each other directly after what back then felt like the longest time of not having seen him…………………somethingssssssss you write and relive and this THIS very feeeeeling now!!!!!!!!

Agaaaaain lil did you know nai!!!!!!!!!