Visuals realities !!

pata nai charlie this ajeeb si feeeeeeeeling in the stomach knotted weird feeling like it just dosnt feel right.....

you shouldnt feel this way !!!!!!!

malooom !!!!!!

but donno why.... like you have no control over it......

first things first the sec you wake up that need to head out for a lil walk.... out n realize it was way too cold tonite rush back in again and just be in your place for a bit...... get on whatsapp block him again.....

this time cause that vision scared you literally like have never been recently only years back in your bachpan it was.... this time this fear was different but equally worse....

imagine just cause he was concerned bout you he was making sure to tell you clear where you stand or dont stand in his life that clear.... now if he realizes how much he still means to you n all he would obvsly make it all the more clear the next time if he had to.....

and maybe in your head you still are not ready for that kinda reality to get hit by !!

that one visual was smthing the way it just left you with that much fear or smthing it sure was.....

ike you can still feel that shiver of the visual through you that you struggle to write now....

and knowing him knowing his concern for you he def would make it all that much more next time if he had to......

and now you are too scared to live anymore of it !!

strange nai....

jsut yesterday that happy for some memory that comes along with his sound and again a sunday that ruins it all away and HOW !!!!!!!!

some damage this sure was......