Friday 27 December 2019

To just be there, fully there...

you can obvsly sense when a person is fully there....

or maybe its just you !!

like you know if the person is halfthere with you or just is there for you with you like in sync with you......

that meet in bombay is when you felt lived loved him to be with just you.....

like he was making you feel it like you know showing you making you feel like he was there with you for you and most of all loved you.....

you rise in love with the one you love a zillion times in life over n over again.....

like there are moments that make you feel like you felt it for the first time....

and that meet in bombay was the first time you felt it just like the first time.... to be in love with him...

like you know realize aishaaaaaaaaaaaaaa you are in love with him !!!!!!!!

wali feeeeeling it was !!!!!!!!!

cause before then or after he never was like that with you.....

after bup it was the first time that you felt his love just for you liek he was making you want to be there with him making you stay with him making you realize he still loved you and the same way like he did before....

it was all that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful like you were back in time again to the most loved time of your life !!!!!!!!!

the only thing was that that day you felt his love for you much more than what you felt back then too....

like he was all with just you !!!!!!

that same feeeeeeling you lived after years in that moment of few mins at conc/....

its been the most difficult few months.....

from trying to get a hold on yourself to trying to live a normal day out.... to you know have a normal face out jsut so nobody esle knows whats really going inside of you !!!!!!!!!!!

these sessions trying to talk it all out did strangely helped in a way.....

working on yourself more now.... working out after ages eating better sleeping better its taking time but slowly getting there....

moments like these are still strangely that magical cause you live him the same way in dreams too but having lived him in teh waking state in a public place who bhi was smthing else....

even thinking of it now writing it out, THAT beautiful !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that one most beautiful face in the world that one beauuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful one for you to live that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling of closeness after years was SMTHING ELSE !!!!!!!!!!!

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