Moooood!!!!!!!

 There’s this sudden realisation off late of you going slowly slowly mental missing him away this bad and even beautifully more worse is to be able to live feeeel him and his sense of presence in his absence and of all times in your waking state……

So you’ve been trying strugggggling to hold back from writing out strongest of moments bhi hoping it somehow tames your mind back and then again all it takes is that one dream of his one waking up like this one today and it all comes back to the square mental self state I say!!!!  

Been tooooo long waaaaaay too long and yet some dates and days you can never get over the Feb the 14th and the more people talk post display of love all around this thing it’s been doing to your mind away and is beyoooooond and now se specially with this upgraded version of Himcomings almost every morning and this state of you soon as you are up……like you are that completely lost wondering why how did you even get here into this version instead…

Like that meeeeeed to want to be back with him in that very moment from the dream is almost every morning thing that itself confuses the veins outta your mind like how!!!!

And if that’s there him that strongly then why there’s no real him soon as you open your eyes up still beside you…

To making it all the more beautifully worse is this pull now to live him over your moms fone like as and when you can and that waiiiiiiiit in you as he is not posting no more…..with that dance reel of his in tagged ayyyaaaAaaaaaaaaaaaa meraaaaa poooota ka poooooota heart life kidney and all things in between right there I say on him…

How can you possibly love loooooooooove just that one face one all him and for this long even in the absence……to reading these messages of him late in the nights to just feeeeeel him in your mind and that one feeeeel every single time he mentioned leke chale jatu why didn’t he just why didn’t you ask him to just take you away!!!!!!!!!

It’s like your mind has different conversations to each of his lines from back then through these nights with his music playing…….

It’s a completely different mooood altogether!!!!!

And then there’s this part of your day post workouts to feeeeel him away like THIS with the himflows himversions the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay you feeeeeel him on your skin is what drives you mental like how’s that even possible it’s that state that ecstatic state of mind it leaves you with like post it you are that THAT him highd!!!!!!!!

Again that evident over your face!!!!!!

This missing lately on a different level lately even writing and reliving the sense of him from today goosebumps!!!!!!!!!