Curled up!!!!!

 What happens after a missing high state of mind and yet he doesn’t come you rush first thing into a workout!!!!!

It was a very late start to the day as you decided to sleep in the day and skip work cause mind is just not in the state to work it’s gotten that beautifully worse charlie you are seeing him all around a car passes by and you think it’s him driving that makes you skip many heartbeats…….a zillion other different instances it’s like anywhere and everywhere there’s him all around like that THAT much him suddenly…

And that’s only been making your missing all the more madder now!!!!!!

Like you don’t even know what to do with THIS much and all this missing accumulated suddenly!!!!!

Like why it’s been this beauuuuuuuutofully worse lately you just donnoooo!!!!!!!

Even today when you wake up real late after watching a movie that barely made sense and now you don’t even remember what the movie was bout cause that’s how HOW himzoned you’ve been recently…

And just didn’t want to work today be it that dream yesterday that’s been running your imagination wilder or that one moment when you for a second think he was standing right beside you in the pharmacy…….

To think of it now that one moment had you thinking you wouldn’t even know what to do with him when in presence for real like to just live him run to him hold him stay there chummi him or in just one go eat him up I swear!!!!!!!

With all this missing you wouldn’t know what to do when he is actually there standing there before you living breathing same air as him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa to even relive that feeeeeeeel right now gooooooosebumped!!!!!!!!

One deliciousness he was I swear!!!!!!!!!!!

Soooooo yaaaaah today it’s been that missing rush of too many things be it dream yesterday or not having lived him today like that feel of not waking upto him and the first thing like always reaching out to your moms fone living him there watching his magic trick video and every single time he says 1 2 3 you are more enthu than ringo to watch his expression that waaaaaaaay he comes closer ayyyaaaaaaaaaa how lucky that fellow is man!!!!!!!

Do those usual bits to startinf day drinking water somethjngs like always that one bit of him lived there telling you how it gives good skin and better tummy first thing in the morning paaani peena bey!!!!!!

To getting in the workout and it’s been his Ricky Martin dancing grooving away kinda workout!!!!!

To finally those moments of living him feeeeeeling him and this one time amidst moments and moves as you lay over the mat and that one feeeeeeeeeel of being curled up and over with his legs…….

It’s the waaaaay sometimes he would pull you down to sit with him on the floor in his room against the wall and have you in the middle of his legs and curl you up with it and that feeeeeeeeeeeeel of being all wrapped up with him that same exact feeeeel vibe today in that very moment……even wring it now you know it’s absolute madness but the waaaaaaay you felt him that way that strongly was BEAUTY!!!!!!!!

And there was this track Latin but the vibe of the track and the waaaaaaaaaay it makes you feeeeel him all over you around you with gentle to wild brushes was pure magic!!!!!!!

It’s been too many feeeels today it’s like you feeeeeeel his missing over in these moments how you still donno but the waaaaaaaay it feeeels cahrlie as you gently move his hand touch slight nibble or bite over the skin like the feeeeel of it around neck legs as you move that vibe of him that saaaame feeeeeel of how you used to feeeo in his presence!!!!!!

Am telling going all mad over and HOW!!!!!!

This rush this rush right now too as you relive him yesterday morning today in between those moves!!!!!!!

It’s been one happy him wildhighd kinda day today already!!!!!