Sound of times…!

 U may not see him live him on days when you want the most but the one time you are THAT sure to find him is when you are sick……and its no longer a fever dream anymore with scary giants along crossways walking but ever since him…its always been him in the most adooooooorable of ways when you are unwell!!

After dressing up clients for diwali and getting yours in red and yellow for diwali you fall sick bad flucking flu sick right a day before diwali…

The sound of crackers in the air and theres always His sound of voice that comes along talking bout his paaaadmini fartmini neighbour..his childlike adooorable excitement in his voice still this very clear!!!!!

Yesterday too first time skipping his fav gulab jamun away cause cold has been that baaaad!!!!

And it was more of that lostness cause getting red done was mainly because the only time he commented immediately with some dp change of yours on WhatsApp was with that some red outfit dp change at vishus place that he loved of yours…….and comments mostly for your hair in the pic!!!!

And this time too after years you wanted to wear a red with that hope n wish on mind but wasnt that much cause of the cold and also someway was……

It was a simple one with pooja and cracker watching the sky lit up that beauuuutifully and everytime you see the flowers up in the sky that one beauuuuuty of that feeeeeeel for him inside of you back then rushes through you…

How for the first and only time ever in life you had started to loooooooove somebodys presence that much that it made you want to see him that day that badly and he kept saying that day too over n over again and also why he keeps calling you throughout the day……to complaining bout how he wanted to wear a basic black kurta instead and asks you what do you think would it look nice on me and this when he was changing his pants cause he was that adooorably vocal bout getting one leg in and the other gets stuck and he struggles through it with those hammmi sounds of him……

That night too him texting you pretty late it was something bout the smoke in the air and you check it and that feeling for the first time in life in you how much you had loved talking to him the complete day the sound of his voice like him texting you that literally made you want to talk to him then and then realising you also were to get married and in that weird space of time he again texts you saying i know you are up razaakh can sense these things u just read…

And shares the entire scenario bout the surroundings bout what he had for dinner and how he still wanted to talk till he falls asleep with you……to that text being asking you to get ready for the gym as early as possible and he will pick you up…

By 8 the next morning you were ready and he literally textst you saying he was under your apartment after 5 mind or so……

The second you are down him standing outside his car on his side doesnt say a word but just that one smmiiiiiiiile on him and you that feeeeeeeeeeel to just see him had made you THAAAAAAAAAT happy!!!!!!!

The second you get in him still looking at you and that one nod of his and that prolly was the first time he doesnt speak a single word and just that face of him had said it all…….like you were that happpppy on the inside and there was that much happierness there all over on him!!!!!!

Where to where only it went!!!!!!!

Soooooooo yahhhh it was a pjs wali Diwali yesterday to that moment of falling asleep and then to live that hug of him that warmth of him that comfort of him as you had a high fever last night……

The waaaaaaaaaay that first moment of his scent and that first touch to the waaaaaaaaaaay he holds all of you away and like that feeeeeeeeeel of being wrapped completely with all of Him and just Him!!!!!!!!!!

His face on your shoulder his daaaaaadi against your skin the waaaaaaaaaays it was giving you mixed feeeeeels like wanting to chummi eat him up also and wanting to just stay that way also the waaaaaay he rubs himself against you moves comforting you even writing it now!!!!!!

Like you don’t visually live him but all of you felt all of him away lived all of him away and HOWWWEEEE with the sound of him……

All day yesterday this one sound push playing it has that vibe of those days somehow strangely like yesterday it made you feel him closely from that day live him closely like it all was just about yestersay and not 15 years back…

Whowwwww saying somethings loud out hits you VERY differently…!

Visuals!!!!

 Also why no matter how long the day has been with work then the dhanteras and also the studio pooja after the renovations kinda looooooong day, theres always this time where and when you find something good it takes over the need to sleep…

When you literalllllly become the one you are in love with…!

Not consciously but with time, it just happens!!

Its not one of those faaaaaantastic ones but theres that lil something bout some that has a hold on you and you just had to……

The beauty of this one visual was one such thing…

These different versions and ways of missing him away!!!!!!!

U the absolute alien, Him the wild forest boy!!!!!!!

Moments!!!!

 When its been a day full of cleaning and organising stuf at home for Diwali it had to be a second shower of the day…

Day started off on a his music note and the attempt of holding your mind off the dream youd had this morning…..it all suddenly somehow feels different now!!!!!

Knowing it!!!!

Shower on and the second very secomd the waaaaaay it just felt that different a beauuuutiful different……there was that beauty in showers the next day of meeting him or in summers the night shower too its that viiiiiibe of he has been here kinds not saying out too much but that viiiiibe that feeeeel as you touch the skin and stuff that one feel…….

That very same feeeeel today like andar se strangely for that momemt it strongly felt the exact same like you are back in time and just met him kinds…….

It was that strong feeling yourself away like youd just met him…

And that very second you just had to write it out cause youd never felt that way and had felt it after a very VERY long time that way…

Some moments!!!!!!!

To THIS beauuuuuuuty of him and you still cant stop playing that clip of him!!!!!

Everytime this one feeeeeel like you are trying still trying!!!!!!!

Magic!!!!

 Another one of those very first experiences right now…

It’s been years having met him n right now after yeaaaars this exact feeel vibe of the shower like back then after meeting him……

It just is feeeeeeling exactly like that almost magic!!!!!!

Still donno howwwwww

Whowwwweeee!!!!

 A snapshot of essence and how fuckiiiingtrue can it possibly get to the core of the words I say!!!!!!

Some sounds and this thing they can do to your mind like wanting to sing away literally to him like this THIS one track absolutely HIM!!!!!

Every bit of the feeeeel that you’ve ever felt for him right from that walk into your life through the gym doors to the bit where hours back the waaaay it made you feel realising something…….

To this very moment as you are watching his zoooooomed up clip on loop just cause it makes you feeeel closer to his face closer to him…

His daaaaadi his face his eyes going left right left right his lashes your heaaaart complete heart right there!!!!!!

And said it before can say it over a zillion times again, there’s nothing in the world that can even come closer to what and how you feel for him!!!!!!!!

The things you feel away for him like right now with this track playing, I loooooooooooove you sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaa a lot more than you’d ever know…!

This night today just just just Magic, pure magic I swear…!

The waaaaay you’d felt for him that strongly this very night years back to fast forward in time right now this very night and still feeling away much much strongly years after too……

Some sounds PURE PASSION LACED MADNESS!!!!!!!!!!

HOWWWE!!!!!!

 No wonder his fav word to call you back then was howlii!!!!!

This loooooooooove for him charlie everytime the waaaaaaay it grows like this like you are literallllly trippin with his music over his clip and in complete aweeeeeeee of him!!!!!

Sometimes it make you self question too how like this mad bolkeee but this is one thing in your life you have no absolute control over!!

Like you just canttttt when it comes to things to do with him be it anything at all and this you it fataaaak se transforms complete aweeeeed of him!!!!!!

As you for getting water check yoruself and now Garfield is your most looooooved character earlier it was scoobydoo…

How like this where you are pushing the ajeebness back of your mind hoping tomo morning you will wake up sober and am telling you charlie all these feeeeeels is without even a sip of daru it’s just this pureeeeeeee himhiiiighd I say and howwwweeeeeeee!!!!!

Thrillesssst!!!!

 Some sounds mhaaaaaaaaaaaaan whhhhoooowwwwwweeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Like you are suddenly in this switch mode like soooooooo high on his music with that one visual of him I say like you keep watching that zoooomed up clip of his and then listening to this one track trillest by the same artist and this hiiiiiiiiigh it’s been giving you away right now…….

Like this beat this viiiiiiibe of the track is all things his presence makes you feeeel away on the inside kindaaaa hiiiiimhiiiiiiighd I say right now!!!!!!!!

And you don’t ever wanna get off this the waaaaaaay it’s making you feel right now!!!!!!!!

This one track that one clip of his!!!!!!!!!

How much you’ve loooooooooved this one and only face in your life all this whiiile!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaa if you only knewwwww I swear!!!!!

Sound of music…!

 The things a goooooooooooood music can make you feel is beyond anybody’s imagination I saaaay!!!!!

Like alwaaaays this beauuuuuty of finding His music…

And this viiiiibe already of “your night is made”…!

Truly luckiest absoluteeeeely luckiest in the world for him to share his music too!!!!!!!!

A night like that one to,

A night like this one too…!

Dinosaur!!!!

 The dino fossils visual and you realise seen it before and yaha waha moving around to music and that one ting from your model friend on insta some meme again and tats when you realise it’s not deleted yet……

That sudden urge and rush to live him and the second you get on ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa how many more times how many more years can you possibly keeeeeep falllllling drowninggggggg in loooove with someone over n over again year after year……

New post of his work but the cover of it I say as weirdly ajeeb it feels now saying it and phir bhi can’t help I say the waaaaaaaaaaaay he looks that beauuuuuuuuuutifully adooooorable in the pic and the next one being the exact same clip almost from your dreams zooooomed up version of his details his lashes ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa how you looooooooved licking them away like noodles I say!!!!!!!

Like just before kissing his eyes you loooooved taking his lashes between your lip and just staying that way and the waaaaaaay he wouldn’t move not even a second obviously and just stay that way without saying a word only after you let the lashes go the waaaaaaaaaay he would fataaaaaaaak se chummi eat your face away!!!!!!

Some visuals I swear ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how gooodamn luckiest in the world I say some just get nai……..

THAT ONE HOOOOOMAN all things ALL THINGS loooooooooooooooove I say head to toe….

See his pants and google out go all out pants like must have ditto ones but no results!!!!!

Missing level madness I swear!!!!!!

The waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he looks that beauuuuuuuutofull ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa this lil heart of yours I swear!!!!!!!!

Way of Love…!

 This beauty of way of love i say somehow or the other just makes it own way through……

Doing your ultimate best to take your mind off it and finally watching tranformers new one and this beauuuuty of his music again…

Some moments nai like this so filmyly the visual goes slow and almost pauses over it for a second……and that tinggggg wali feeeeling his music…

De la soul!!!!!

Music…!

 Can share movies hobbies food you like places you love with people acquaintances or even random friends over conversations…music is too intimate its like sharing your core almost with someone……

And as they call it now the “love language” is what sharing music feels like…

In the balcony him sharing his love for movies and film making and asks what your career interest was and you start off with as a kid wanting to something in classical dance form then it was classical singing and eventually was sketching and illustration as you grew up…..

And that adoooooooooorable childlike squeak in his voice with excitement saying no wonder i always wanted to have someone love someone in life was inclined to anything art form…no wonder i love you so much!!!!!!

Then shares his knowledge and advice about its not financial stability that one needs to have to pursue something you just need the will to do it…..and tells you to check out videos to learning something and then can still pursue it…

Its his likes on one of the posts and you notice some painter her profile first few post and there was His music and you realise his back then bullet pic sketch and the other last year dp thing too!!!!!!!

Knowing him him sharing his loved music only happens with someone he feels closest to!!!!!

And then suddenly you heading over to one of his places today and still being on the gram didnt make any sense…..

Cause you didnt want to snoop around as he was your best friend first and youve always wished prayed and wanted the best for him…….didnt want that deep down years back gfriendy thing to pop back so deactivating the account seemed more logical for now…

Am telling you love does make you do all things ajeeb that still feel right, strangely weirdly somehow!!!!!!

This one feeeeeeel whoever where ever the luckiest to have him that one person in your life, you can not stop being grateful and thankful for in your life…

He is that kind…!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa you beauuuutoful beauuuuuutiful lil big adooooorable thing i swear!!!!!!!

Words!!!!!

 This thing youd read on some writers page few days back!!!!!

Also when the original plan of the day was heading over to either Sanghi or dd colony today like this years him place……

But this too much missing lead to it and now you are not sure why you even did that!!!!!!!

On a brighter note another one of those most loooved times of the year……the Diwali!!!!!

Taking a few pics and how corners have turned out is like doing your best to put your mind on diversion but this missing nai when your current wallpaper is the zoooooomed up version of just his forehead in that white tee, just sooo nobody knows who it is or what it is!!!!!!

Having been thaaaaaaaat used to seeing him that way for real ayyyaaaaaaaa that one beauty of him i swear in that one too!!!   

With his usual lip style!!!!!

Innocence adooooorableness gorgeousness eatableness all in one…!

Dazed!!!!!

 Exactly why youd deleted your facebook account years back, its that need sometimes to not know the reality for the best…

On some days the missing hits harder than any other day of the year…

Also the day when you literally drown yourself in the scent he knew of you - carolina herera……

Its just a weird missing today when being too nosey and daya types didnt really work that well for you!!!!!

This missing today!!!!!

Love is all things beautiful and yet at the very same time can be all things ajeeb too…

Dates!!!!

 Andddddd some dates on the calendar and the sound of his voice from that nights phone call years ago…it still always ALWAYS feels like it was just yesterday…

Just yesterday he was here with all his Love…!

This one moooooooooood some dates can land you in and still wondering!!!!!!!

If only…!

Amazed, still love you the same!!!!!!!!!!

The sound...!

 The sound of His name...!

Feeling flu like weird in between to head to work or skip it and now having coffee read this very first thing as you get on insta...kittuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu complete and just all HEART!!!!!!!!!!!

The beauty & adore of pet name love name whatever you may call it... The very first person and only one that gave your first ever nickname pet name Him...

Karely, cookieeeepie, kurkuriii, bombieeee, bubbles and most one of all Howliii!!!!!!!!

Himcomingsssss!!!!!!

 When you literally wake up with your sound of voice……

Last few days this ajeeb feeeeel cause low-key you were actually hoping wishing he sees your story bout him on his birthday something’s you just donnoooo know bas just that need to….self assure your feelings away!!!!!

To some habits not changing and all you could hear was the sound of his voice from back then when he kiddingly use to say this karelyyy shakkkking on me shakk what the cause back then it was a line from golmaal had released sometime around then…

And this feeeeeel with his birthday post as delicious as he looked in that ayyyaaaaaaa Garfield shirt that one doubt who took such a closeuo and loooovefilled picture!!!!!

It’s that feeeeeeeeeeel ayyyaaaaaaaaa luckiest in the world to live him loooooove him just breathe the same space as him!!!!!!!

To last night ofc OFC in black again you your sleep zone on the couch and this touch on your lips like just that touch of his finger and you lean on the side you felt it and sniff for his presence that Thaaaaaaaaaa One beauuuuuuutty to smell that scent of him and it makes you that happppy he is fiiiiinallly here……and he does that again like they do to the kids lips and you lean more towards him and thaaaat very second to feeeeeeeel him over his chummiiiiiii the waaaaaaaaay he kisesexaaactly his Versova style slowwww nibble and that makes you open your eyes to check him out…

Cause until then you were sleeeep looooving him away but that awakens wideeeely awakens the core of your soul and howwweeeeeeee!!!!!!

And him still doing that you doing your best to see what he was wearing and if it’s black he missed you too much if it’s white it’s just cause he wanted to come…if it’s burgundy then it’s his missing madness…….but the rush always come with the black…….and as you try to move slightly to check him out the waaaaaaaaay he holds all of you your hands away and that one stare right diving into your soul and raises his eyebrows asking what’s up and that one restlessness helplessness I swear like all of you wanting to be closest to him to his skin possible like not even an inch awa y from him and the waaaaaaaay he holds you a lil away and watches you struggle to go closer to him……..and that one smiiiiiiiiiiile ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaa how many moreeeeerrrrrr times can you possibly faaaal drown away in someone’s smiiiile like this!!!!!!!

To the waaaaay he slowly whispers kyaaa hassri howli like your word of love has become Howli…

To that second when he slowly lets your hands off and that instant rush to literally jump over him and moment to just say it out as much as you’ve missed living him just seeing him breathing the same space as him you’ve MISSSSSSSSED that strong presence essence of him over you his teeth…….everytime he used to that it’s like that feeeeel of someone loving and digging deep into you not just on the surface wala love…it’s like Him diving into you kindaaaa vibe every single time…

And this time the waaaaaaaaaaaay he does that itself tells you bout his missing for you and howwwwweeeeeeee like you wake up with your own lil scream…

Look around and it was almost morning and just you……..

That feeeeeeeeeeeeel on your skin and neck you wake up with like there’s this want this need after waking up from himcoming like that one rushing back to sleep just so the moment continue hoping he is still there but doesn’t happen……

The first thing when you wake up is still neeeeeeding waaaaanting that feeeeel of him and had to rush into the workout!!!!!!!

And howwwww bad you missed it to live him like this it’s pure wild madness I swear!!!!!!!!

The waaaaaaaaaay it’s like setting that missing free for the moment then to feeeeeeeeeeel him on your skin that strongly same spots same viiiiiibe is madness to another level which leads to biting your own lip away as you move and feeeeeel him that strongly……..

In the bathroom and first thing you see is this dinosaur hand towel you’d called for like it’s this token of your missing in dinosaur form and it’s been making you happy everytime you see it……like there’s my missssssing and if only sing miyaaaaaaa ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa knewwwwww my heart and all organs and everything Loooooooove I say!!!!!!!!!!!

Sound of laughter!!!!

 You know you are myaaaaaaadly in love with someone when working your mind suddenly zones off to watching that video of his again and laugh away with the sound of his laughter...

Donno why charlie shuruuu se this LOOOOOVE for his smile even before knowing it was love just to see him smile from across the gym used to make you that happy in the heart...it's that content happy feeeeeeel inside everytime you saw him smileeeee...

Now the sound of his laughter his adooooooooorably infectious laughter and it's been making you this happy away even with the nostalgia rush lately.....

Feels Ajeeb missing this week more lost more missing........like THAT long it's been having lived him felt him hugged him touched him!!!!!!!!

Words n moments!!!!

 Since mprning this one constant thing no matter where you are what you are doing that one beauuuuuuuuutoful birthday picture of his that one feeeeeel of him and that one adooooooooooorable chuckle of his playing with ringo!!!!!

Like it was making you smile and happy giggle away akele akele just recalling the sound of his laughter!!!!!

Even on your way back home music playing but all you could hear was that one sound of him and the waaaaaay its been making you that THAT happy away……

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaa him can never be grateful and thankful enough for him!!!!!!!

To just seconds back that one sense of him as you pass out for a second or something watching some fashionshow with kaya project playing for the ramp walk…

And that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him on your lips like it wSnt just your mind or just your lips that sensed him but that beauuuuuutiful scent of him like you can almost still smell it…

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Daaaaamn!!!!!!

 When you couldn’t post in one for some weird reason!!!!

Soooo yaaaaa you see this Garfield shirt on the rack take a closer look and that very firstttttttt wish your best pops was to buy for him…and that feeeeeeling after just touch the shirt feel the shirt and picture him in your mind and head out…cause it was in black base with big font style over it….and you LOOOVED it for him and on your way out from Sephora they were just bout setting this display thing and there was this black leather jacket and you again drawn back to the store again……check that and again same viiiiiibe of picturing him in it and that one khushiiiii of just knowing HOWWWWWWWWW good he would look init……it was for around 12k and that instant need to get it the store guy asks for the size and that one sinking feeeeel as the guy further mentions in jackets if the fit isn’t right it looks off !!!!!!

And knowing your own love for jackets lately howratly you might wear it off and you wanted that JUST for him!!!!!

Ask the store guy again if it’s always available and the guy confirms it’s one of their best sellers so mostly there……..

On your way out questioning your own question kinda moment bout why did you ask the guy if it’s always available and that one for no reason khushiii rushed moment it was…

To this one post of his HIM in that ditttoooooooiioo shirt ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa your heart the waaaaaay all you wanted to do was to jump into the picture and squeeeeze hug him away and that smiiiiiiiiile of his am telling you is your heart and every organ to every vein in you kinda LOOOOOOVE it is!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howwwwwweeeeeeee only you were missed abhiiiiiii k abhiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!

Himcomings!!!!!

 Why didn’t he come today and then he comes and howwwweeeeeeeee!!!!!

Now all you see the more you see him it’s like your complete HEART right out there all over on him I sweear!!!!!!! 

It’s just the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay it makes you happpppy on the inside just to see him smile every single time right from the start how what’s it even no clue but the waaaaaay it makes you feel on the inside is beyond logics!!!!!!

When he finally posts something of his birthday like that feeeel of no himcoming this morning wake up and live him thinking the looooved circle circling is from yesterday his friends one cause HOWWWWW you wish you could straight away see it from your own acc but don’t wanna risk it……as the unblock just happened after years so not losing it for anything…

This one routine thing now soon as you are up see him there and then start with the day…

And you’ve got tooooooo happily comfortable with that vibe of your mornings…the SUNSHINE of your life He is…!

Much later mins back your mom gives you the phone to check some message from some neighbour regarding Pooja timings for the store and that one khujleeeee I swear first thing check him and it was new one from his birthday…

The shirt he was wearing I mean the FIRST TIME ever something like this happened like earlier it was the black shirt you’ve been dreaming and drooling him with and the second one being THIS precise few days back when at Sephora for some fragrance…….you always do this to stop and check out jack n jones bahaar se he and you notice this!!!!!!

Celebrating Him…!

 Post shower light the candles set the music slice of cake like literally setting the mood to write him out from the day…

When the day started with that mixed vibe of missing him waaaaaaay too much today with toooo many flashbacks and you wear the navy blue today just his fav color on you kinda vibe……. right about almost noon when your mom calls you saying she wasn’t feeling right so rush back home and notice she wasn’t feeling right……like in a bad way so rush her to the hospital as she had complained bout hand numbness…..few tests done had to be under observation for a few hours but luckily it was nothing…

Was due to dehydration and that lead to low bp so it was all panic for few hours and sorting then some urgent work call for some client order so had to rush back again to work after dropping mom home…

Almost evening the mind wasn’t feeling right come back home and your mom mentions bout wanting to head out for dinner somewhere cause she doesn’t do hospital visits well ever since bhayya and then her accident…so change that head out Rhu it was and the viiibe of that place everytime you are there that need to be with him there cause they play possibly the best music…

The food bad but the drinks and ambience absolute awesomeness……skipped drinking today for obvious reason where your mom insists but you had to stay in senses specially knowing your capacity for drinks didn’t want to risk as bad as you wanted a drink then…

Ask them if they had cake again bad options for that too skip it the very first thing to do was order your favourite chocolate coconut cake slice from magnolia and this has been a ritual for years now…to have a piece of cake on his birthday in a way to celebrate him…like this was your most beautiful excuse of not having had sugar for over 2 months now finally his birthday you just HAD TO!!!!!!!

Just before having the cake to live him and you realise you hadn’t seen your most loved circle around him like the first time you notice he did post something was when at the hospital…hit it and it was another one of your most loved pics of him wide teeetvy smile but HIS SHIRT HISSSSS SHIIRRRTTTTT style I say!!!!!!!

That smile he does it’s like his most adoooooooorable kid version flashing that smile and that handsomeness with his style of shirt I say!!!!!!

It’s that instant rush of khusbiiiii rushing through you suddenly after a very very stressful day……like it immediately showed on you the waaay the smile was back on you even on a very stressful face literally!! In less than a second…

It’s like He is this beauuuuutiful instant dose of happiness in you…!

Like your day made in and with just that moemnt like all of last nigrb too you keep checking and waiting for him to post something from his birthday with that hope to live him from today…

Something’s nai pure beautiful madness same as this illustration by your fav artists that you love posting on his birthday usual thing and it was the guy in white tee with hearts over him the waaaaaaaay it that beauuuuuuutofully fell in insync with that picture of his in white tee looooking absolutelyyyyyuu DELICIOUS and this illustration literal state of your mind your heart all over him…

Perfect for the birthday wish…!

Whattaaa day!!!!!

 Started how and ended how!!!!!

Finally home but amidst all the uncertainties the usual ritual of having a cake celebrating HIM on his birthday eventually did happen……

This feeeeeling right now how the things to do with him have become the ultimate Priority of your life…no matter what come may!!

Saaaathiyaaaa!!!!

 Ayyyaaaaaaaa exaaaactly the way the entirety of HIM makes you feeeeel in your life and heart LIT!!!!!

It’s only in moments like these do you realise what that moment from that movie that song means like…….

When she running running lights up all the lights in the house after realising he loves her…

When His born day gives you the same feeeeeels the MOST loved day of your life second closest to this would definitely be 26th of October…!

This feeeeeeeeling right now mixed vibes!!!!!!

Toooo much missings and…..!

APPLE!!!!!!

 Happppppppppppyyyyyyyyy birthday to the apple sitaphal and all things love heart and deliciousness to the ultimate LOVE, HEART AND MAGIC of your eyes and life…!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaj the waaaaaaays you are missed is nothing like any other day missing i swear!!!!!!!!

That one magic and wonder of the world, like always thank you aunty for HIM!!!!!!!!!

Buzzzzzzzd!!!!!!

 You know it's the MOST important date of your life when you are THIS buzzzzzd subah subah like first it was the THE himcoming agaaaaaaaain in a row that leaves you asking wanting hoping wishing for more like you WANT that continuation of it in the next dream now like not stop it there only kindaaaaaaaaa himcoming........

He is your pooooooooora ka poooooooooooooooora heart and happiness when he comes in that one black like now he knows kinfaaa vibeeeee cause the waaaaaaay he waaaaaits for your expresssun after seeing him in black that face of his and last night he asks har rozzzz bas yahi nai pehnu mein and you just nod with excitement and he nods back like your way and ayyyaaaaaaaa the waaaaaay that nod looks that adooooooooorable on him and you rush to eat him and the waaaaaay he holds your hand awaaaay and you struggle to go closer and the waaaay he enjoys that struggle that restlesnes in you and chuckles away over your struggle......to that moment when you stop moving and the waaaaaaaaaay he suddenly comes closer and that THAT rushhhhhh in him in the way his body moves his arms move around you the waaaaaay he breathes ayyyaaaa something's you write now and this feeeeeel again!!!!!!!!

To waking up to the first thing you see is him in the white tee like you hearted it out so the very first thing you wake up and see is HIM and the waaaaaaaaaay he looks THAT delicious in that one!!!!!!!!!

He is your pure ultimate level of madness I swear I SWEAR!!!!!!!

To the moments after he is the God of forest I say!!!!!!

Like the THE GOD!!!!!!!!

To today this morning adding Diwali lights finally at home and you are this buzzzzzd cause it's his birthday HIS BORN DAY tomorrow!!!!!!!!

The day you are MOST Grateful for in life...

His born day...!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed today!!!!!!!!

First eat him n then the sharing the silence ofcourse...

Him with lucky!!!!!

 It’s that feeeeeeeeling charlie like you look at him and that one heart wish whoever the luckiest I say that one beauuuuuuty of him……

Him holding ringo him in THAT one white tee picture it’s one of your recent favmost pictures of him his eyes GODDDDDDD HIS EYESSSSSSSSSS his nose his usual style of doing the lip thing taking a selfie his daaaaaaaaadi his forehead it’s jussssssssst every bit of him in that and it did bring back all those eaaaaaathimup viiibes completely I say to him running around the dining table with ringo where his adoooooooorabke cute mind even blocks one side with chair hoping that would make him finally catch that fellow and even that doesn’t work……like how many times throug the day you’d been watching that one laughter video of him trying to make ringo laugh and the dining one….

Like you miss him to the extent of wanting to be in place of ringo or his sister for that matter sitting on the stairs with him in chaddis….ayyyaaaaaaaaa!!!!! Like even back then this you did tell his sister too when missing him away in Bangalore…

It’s in moments like these do you really realise how many versions of him do you really miss and that much…

It was like reliving him from back then and then seeing realising he that adoooooooooorably hasn’t changed the rest of him not even a bit…

Except for your bit in life…!

Visuals!!!!!!

 Anything to everything like even just the sound of his laughter his adoooooorable chuckle was making you laugh away literally amidst work and madness for a still frame final color……

Like even when you go to get the paint yoruself for the frames step out of the store and see this huge beauuuuutiful tree right outside and zone out to al things him just standing under there with sudhakar bring the car over and standing right there…….

And you just stand there reliving that one white tee picture of his looking up at the sun rays through the branches of the tree…..

From that moment to the many others at work like you just couldn’t stay or keep calm imagine charlie just imagine having to hear him laugh like that the sound of his voice just that one picture of his be it lost standing holding ringo away that letteally makes you have that picture talk with him like zaraaa isku neeche rakkeee merku pakad letaaa kinda madness it was and that many times through the day…..or that picture of him sleeping over ringo and that position you’d seen him that many times with lucky but the waaaaaaay seeing him like that THAT CLOSEUO for real takes you back to the same moment of him on the bed and you over living that beauuuuuuuuty of him away and the second you call him you look beautiful that one beauuuuuuuty of expression change in him……

Like you know you are maaaaaadly in love with the entirety of someone and not just one thing bout them when anything to everything makes you love them all the more makes you want them even more………

It’ just felt like living that siiiide of him after THIS long!!!!!!

Another one of those versions of him that you absoooooolutely looooooooooooved and hoowwwwwwweeeee!!!!!

Visuals!!!!!!!

 Howwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeee do you even act normal be normal in your head after having lived him theewaaaaaay you'd lived him the most after yeaaaars!!!!!!!

Like you waaaaaait for your mom to go to sleep just soooooo you can write it out!!!!!

THIS LEVEL OF KHUSHI TODAY!!!!!!!

Ayyaaaaaaa he is the ultimate HEART of your life I say!!!!!!

Himmmmm!!!!

 How do you even hit a pause on your facial expressions over expressing it all away on the outside!!!!!!

THAT ONE HIM I SWEAAAAASSSSR!!!!!!!!

HIMM YUMMMMMMM!!!!!!!

 When your laaaaaaate morning starts with a mom lecture and you literaaaaaly tell her that you are not in this zone maybe after days we can come back to this topic not now.......

Studio work almost done ALMOST and you had to run for some fabric thing sudden plan change where it was supposed to be the day off for today......and this usual need to check him first before starting the day like the first moment soon as you are up is see him on Instagram just the picture and then get out of the bed with a smile on...

Later is the check for any pictures or videos of him on his ringo page......and today TODAAAAAAAY It feels like it's your birthday almost knowing it's HIS 2 days away…..

But this morning felt like your birthday ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa HE IS THE HEART HE IS THE MADNESS HE IS THE MOST BEAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTIFUL CHAOS HE IS THE PASSION HE IS THE ADOOOOOOOOOOORABLE HE IS THE LOOOOOOOOOOVE HE IS THE HAPPIIIIIIINESS HE IS THEEEEEE ALL THINGS LOVE AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!

Ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa your eyes your heart your mind STAMPED with him I saaaaaaay he is the GUITAR THE SAAAAAXXXXXXXZZOPHONE of your life I say!!!!!!!!

Like your are JUMPIJG On the inside with this level of EPIC LEVEL of madness for him with a struggle of a straight face on the outside..........

To say it out loud you are CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZY ABOUT AND FOR HIM I say!!!!!!!!

Today eyes are served heart is served soul is served I say just the taste bit remains!!!!!!!!!!!!

THAT ONE FACE THAT ONE SOUND OF HIS VOICE AND CHUCKLEEEEEE THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT ONE BEAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTIFUL HUMAAAN FOR LIFE I SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIJE CRAAAAAAAAAAAAZY ABOUT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Days!!!!!

 Some days on the calendar you can never just take it another day on the calendar even years after!!!!!

Today being one such day from October that did make Diwali from feared to the most LOVED festival of your life…

There has been no him today this morning but this viiiiiibe ever since the waking up like no matter what you are doing all you can hear is the sound of his voice talking singing in your ears……and something like this again has never happened before like random talks of his from the drives ringing through you since morning today…

And you are rushing through the work at studio to get it ready before Diwali and it’s only getting that much more hectic with each day and somehow it just doesn’t get to you like you are in your own zone even tackling the work at studio like the mind you know is in a world of it’s own has a vibe of its own like that fully whoelfully in that him zone and with that constant smile on…

This morning too like you had to choose this need to feeeeeeel him more over heading to work straight priorities I say!!!!!

And this beauuuuuuuuuuuuty the waaaaaaay just working out moving dancing was giving away visuals to the sound of his voice from the usual touch and sense of him to visually live him and like all throng you were trying to shut your eyes and live the feeeeeeeeeeeel of him and I swear charlie there’s nothing you feeeeel more strongly more lovingly more madnessly more passionately more insanely than the feeeeeeeeel of him sense of him visuals of him that one THAT ONE face in the world for you that one complete human for life I swear!!!!!!!!!

Like to feeeeeeeeeeeel him this strongly in your moemnts is something else!!!!!!

Like he is that insync with you your moves your vibe your mood like every part of you as it moves to feeeeeeeeel him away along is maddddddly magical I say!!!!!!!

Every single time!!!!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa if you only knew I swear!!!!!!!!!!!’

Diwali!!!!

Diwali 2009 day!!!!!

Some days!!!!!!!!

LIFE changing...!

Moments!!!!

 Some moments when you relive feel away all the more strongly nai!!!!!

When he picks you up morning morning that day to the gym and plays this track just before reaching the gym.....hosh walo Ko khabar kya and that one look on his face like for a second it makes you wonder what it even was about!!!!

Like from that moment on to the workout your mind keeps replaying the moment still confused and wondering why would he do that!!!!

Cause him playing a hindi track was a BIG deal specially if it's anything other Lucky Ali...

And every year almost that viiiiibe of that day rushed through you where post bup even once he posts the title of same track around same date as his WhatsApp status...

Yesterday a packed day where you start with workout but had to rush as they mess up the mirror frames and hanging paint away!!!!!!

Coming home that one weird missing cause it wasn't all happy missing somehow!!!!!!

It's when the missing hits the hardest with that then and now weird feeling in the stomach that your can't fight or sink in...

This time of the year tooooooo many memories almost each and every single day from here on...!

Word magic...!

 Lil moments of word magic like this...!

Telling youu it's in the Air of October...

Something bout it this magic like!!!!!!!!!!!

This mind not working right when it needs to work a hell load right now, the waaay it keeps slipping away into the Him Wonderland...!

Him in black...!

 That soooooo sounded like the will.smith movie title!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this this lil HIM hiiiiighd heart of yours when rushed like this THIS!!!!!!!!

Everything in you is this charged like super charged be it writing him till morning hours then having to rush to work as the workers and painters will be there by 12 and here you are still Trippin on the way he looked like a full plate of caramel custard in that black shirt that you that baaaaaadly wish could slurp away in one lick in one bite I swear!!!!!!!!!!!!

First thing you see on Instagram this how apt very very spot!!!! That one face that ONE HIM !!!!!!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa there's something bout him in that black shirt like he becomes this beauuuuuuuutkful forest like version of him and howwwwweeee!!!!!!!!

It's dreams like these and himcomings like this that makes your face difficult to function at work like how do you even where do you even hide these expressions this rush of him all over your face giggling away to anything happening at work cause you are soooooooooo him highddddd still like since waking up keep touching your neck again keep touching your lips n nose away!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaa what too doooo what not too doooo scoooby Dooby doo level of madness!!!!!!!

There's no absolute self control with a himcoming in that one shirt I swear be it in the dream or now since waking up!!!!!!!

Howwwwweeeeeeeeeee only!!!!!!!!

Kitttuuuuuuuuu kitttttuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu kitttttuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu youuuuuuu sexxyyyyyyyy sexyyyyyyy lil big gorgeosulyyyyyy adorable thing inswear!!!!!!!! Slightest only if any idea at all!!!!!!!!!

Two feet…!

 This one artist THIS ONE ARTIST is like the complete vibe of him the entirety of his vibe captured by this artist like regardless of which song it is good lyric bad lyric doesn’t matter it’s the viiiiiibe of the sound by this artist and it’s like listening to him living him with eyes shut and just listening to the sound…..

Two feet has become Him only now…

It’s the waaaaay it makes you come alive with everything Him!!!!!

Am telling you this one month driving you bad mad and howwweeeeee!!!!!!

Times!!!!

 Like ofcourse there are those times when you wish some moemnt that’ strongly to be real like waking up from some dream and the waaaaay he comes in that shirt living the moment away waking up in the morning wishing away for it for real like the post workout movements and wishing to live it for real with him like being in some place and wishing to be there with him for real some day like wanting to needing to love him a way like you never did never could before…..it’s these zillion things that rush through your mind wanting to live him that way wanting to live a moemnt that way wanting to sleep knowing he would still be there when you wake up too…

Not having to look for him soon as you are up and stil finding him there on your pillow still sleeping…..

Wanting to do that thing he had talked about wanting to be there at that place he had mentioned about like a zillion things wanting needing and yet there are moments and days like these like today like right now……

To still be able to feeeeel this living that one visual of him from the dream yesterday!!!!!!

Random!!!!

 A day back with her for some jewellery that she  wanted to buy and wanted you to come along as you were closeby….

She does weird gf dy things man like asking you to share your dabba pic from work share songs with you share movie recomm with you and you actually tell her that day finally at the jewellery place that you are very much straight and been in love with somebody for over a decade now…..and she tells you that she knows you’ve told her pehle bhi but she just likes you as a person too much…..is what the reason was sooo yah her choosing some earring and you notice this one ring had to be a wave that looked again like a beautiful sparkly C the most looooooooved alphabet of your life I say…

And you call your mom and get it immediately…..

once home your mom pointing it out and you check the jewellery and realise it’s all C in your finger rings collection….

To that other random moment the day when brushing play this recomm YouTube playlist and the track supermassive black hole and that very second him rush I say!!!!!

Huge toothpastey smile on at his place just reached and you drop your bag and rushing to hug him and your phone rings that was your ringtone back then…..and he shakes up literally saying kyaaaaa ringtone hai bey ye and you go over to put it on silent and he asks you to take the call and you tell him you don’t do phones when with him remember and he smiles away asking you to answer again the phone rings again and you ignore again and he comes closer and the phone rings again and you tell him it was vishruta and he answers the call puts it on speaker and you couldn’t hold back the smile as he holds you and asks you to speak to her and you tell her you won’t be meeting her or something and the waaaaaay she immediately says shriya you sound different where are you….and you hang up and be immediatrlyyyyyyy chummi eats your face up that very moment!!!!

It was ofc obvious that you change the ringtone that very day and the next time Vishrutha call again and your phone rings and it was carbon based lifegorms track now and the waaaaay he chuckles exicedtly saying meri beautiful pause and then continues saying tu cbl sunti nice nice and that one smiiiiile adjusting on the bed closer to you…

It’s the random most moments charlie and the waaaaaaay they bring him along it’s this feeeeeeeeeel like no other to just be able to feeeeeel him live him like this it somehow completes you and whatever missing comes close to when asleep to still be able to live him in ways like theseeee the way you do has become the core of your existence now….

Like black your most fav color now MOST fav one I say!!!!!

Him!!!!!!

 Even before seeing him his face him walking through the door like that one visual you can never get enough of reliving I swear!!!!!

Like that itself held you right there that feeeeel inside to just be there and live him live his walk towards you or that mirror stare with him for the first time…..himmtying his shoe lace and looks up and at you throug the mirror and just stays that way…..no smile nothing just a straight beauuuuuuutiful stare and the waaaaaaaay it felt like being held by him from a distance……..

Even much after and before knowing it’s love that day he was high that which he shared with you much after…..all night his friend then oknfor the first time now you don’t remember that friends name of his……he talks him through about taking the first step instead of waiting as he still had time….because he did tell him then about you getting married and stuff and still he was in love with you…

So the friend gets him high he had been up all night and yet comes to the gym to see you…..and the waaaay he comes straight up toooo close to you and asks you out for the first time that was out as in under the gym coffee place…even that day that beauuuuuty of living him like almost that magnetic feeeeeel charlie being drawn to him…effortlessly without thinking without having to rethink like it was that beauuuuutoful like you had known him before kinda strong vibe about him…

Him talking you living his details away his facial expression when saying some words specifically his hand movements his way of sitting on the stairs his way of walking towards the car his way of just making some squeaky sounds saying some words his chuckle the sound of his laughter anythung to everything bout him you wanting to live every detail and somehow loving each one not knowing yet…

Like it was the same time around when he had started to drop you home too and this music sharing of his making you wait back under your apartment to listen and finish some track be it back then or even now people don’t get it just don’t get it you are not lonely you don’t want that pitty from them…..

Cause you are nothing about that life is not about having to spend your days your mornings your nights your random moments your special moments your bad days your good days your best self your worst self with anybody with somebody just because you have to it’s that need to spend it with someone you want to you know is your home feels like your home the one you know with this is it bas……

It’s your mind it’s your soul it’s your body it’s for that matter your skin as least as your skin that knows just knowsssss that one feeeeel it wants to be felt as and with…

It’s the way your heart feels like earlier there were times you used to sad and almost depressed but somehow with time and realising this simple fact of life and building your life around it…

You grew up literally!!!!!!

And finally!!!!!!

And for the times that you miss living him touching him hearing him holding him eating him is soon as you shut your eyes that pretty much well almost makes up for it…

It’s that fact of knowing you just can’t somewhere else someplace else somebody else you just can’t…

The wiring has been done and can’t be changed now…!

Like the insides of you also only strictly come alive with the slightest of him and howwwweeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Like it’s almost madness the waaaaaay the things slightest of him does away to you!!!!!!

Beautiful damage I say!!!!!!

Wired!!!!!

 Finalky there and meet her and stuff and talking to her mother and she sends you a text about some guy asking about you and was bringing the guy over and you lookup and there she was…..introduces the guy and the first thing the guy asks about is wasn’t it cri playing in your car as you got off…..and you just nod and introduces about name and what the guy does and stuff……her mom and she leaves leaving you with the guy and you looking around the guy talking about the concert and stuff and make the call excuse and walk out from there to the food counter asking for water…..

Grab the water and head out saying bye and stuff to her mom as she was busy with other guests and leave her a text and back on your way home…

The beauuuuuuuuuty of that complete moemnt is being slammed with moemnts like these and the waaaaaaaay they only make you realise how absolutely right you are on the path that you are…

It’s this feeeeeeeel charlie mom talking lecturing away stuff some or other saying same thing away it’s you alone that knows what it will all come down to…eventually it’s you that has to lead the life live the life with the person…..

It takes a lot to fight for something you truly absolute lfuckingly believe in with every ounce of you and it does take a lot of fighting to be precise…

And this thing HIM in your life is something you have been the only thing sure of in your life right from that very moment he walked d into your life regardless of his presence or absence as that has nothing to do with the waaaaay you strongly feeel for him…

Sex and all things casual is easy to step in it’s all out there but it takes that one thing in your life that makes you realise this is it…….like it’s your first and only but it’s that feeeeeeeeeewl charlie that rushed through you be it back then or now everytime you think of him…

Be it lovingly adoringly caringly possesively passionately sexually or just that need to hold him live him or just that need to hear him or make him sleep on your lap or feed him something like that thing of parental love or the zillion other forms and ways of love it only comes alive with and for HIM!!!!!!

Like andaraaa se only there’s that thing of need to be where you feel like it’s home and it’s always been Him…

Like there are ZILLUONNNNNNNNNNNNNNN feeeeeels you feeeeel away for him sometimes calmly sometimes VERY restlessly but it starts and ends there with him…apart from him there’s not a thing that you possibly feel otherwise like that thing bout feels is something comes and goes with him…other times you are just that plain numb!!!!!!

Like there’s no need or want to be some where else sharing that moment having that conversation looking up at the guy like it just doesn’t happen from within only it’s that numb like you knowwwwww……..

The second on your way home play the music again and there he was it’s like switch mode on and everything him mode on…..

And HOWWWWEEEEEE!!!!!

Sound of music…

 There are tbese things you do when you miss him too much visit a certain galli sometimes or eat dil khush or it’s this just go out somehow somewhere with loud music in the car it’s somehow strangely helps like it elevates that missing and also cause there are times when you miss his psy beedi that much like that want that need to get high that way and miss him……

But that with him stayed that way that faltu photographer even asks you on set if you do have sutta as the guy wanted to  have a smoke so if you wanted too as it was his style psy beedi not the regular one and you just say no and get back to the model room…..same thing again with this model asking you for it before having one and you don’t……

It’s also that comic fear almost inside ek puff maaari him wali saaari missing zoooop bolke bahar cause there’s that much kissing inside!!!!!!

And you found this way of listening to electro edm stuff and the waaaaaaaaaaaaay it makes you feeeeel makes you eeelvates that missing in you elevates that him rush in you….like today too you had to be at the opening thing of the model work office thing and out for that evening and you play this artist cri loud on your way there…..

It’s the waaaaaaaaay you zone out of the present and land into all things him it’s thaaaaat viiiiiibe of him driving and you living him living every detail of his and loving each one as you live it……it’s almost used to be like kissing each detail of his away from a distance without even really touching him…

It’s his versions to live every look of his every smile of his every nose twitch of his every time he squinted his eyes looking at the sun ahead on the road and that heaaaaart of yours ayyhaaaaaaa how can you possibly be drawn to each every expression move of his…….like any detail to everything bout him be it back then you were a fan absolute fan of him or now this very moment when his feet ka picture becomes your phone wallpaper now…….

Something’s are just beyond you like I said wired with just and all things him…

Wired!!!!!

 Time and again this beauuuuuuty of some realisations you are just wired with all things him right from the very start of him walking into the doors……it was almost electric in an instance like he just came and wired you away with Him for life…

It’s these moments and the waaaaaaaay they make you re realise it isn’t just your head then it’s actually a fact of your life now…wired with Him and howwwwweeeeeeeee!!!!! 

Sing miyaaaaaaaa bow only you were missed today too if you only had the sliiiiiightest idea!!!!!!

Right from the start of the day today dancing missing him away vibiiiinh away to the moments from the himcoming from yesterday!!!

To moemnts in the evening to this realisation it was same time around when it was the initial times with him under the gym in the gym where working out did become living him away instead…….

This rush of some days when you sort of live your mind away in the most gorgeous of ways cause it’s him rushing throug you when you are this high on music just music mins before that is and missing him away waaaaaaaay tooooo tooooooo much…….now the wine stops cause you just had to write the night out today!!!!’n

This missing THIS missing for him!!!!!!

Again when it shows on you this evidently where your mom says you look different today your eyes look different today…

How do you even hide away with all this him rush now!!!!!!

 

Sound of music...!

 Right outside some music instruments store Niladri playing in his car, him checking out that guitar in the window display as he stops and looks at it for a few mins you just knowwwww something beautiful is soon coming out of him...

Karely you know us humans are like musical instruments like all of us resemble to some sound of music some instrument and you are like the sound and feel of sitar also why I miss you more with Niladri sound........

Years after Him Saaaaaaxophone...

It's this viiiiiiibe of the sound of this one artist playing a new find just now and this viiiiiiibe the waaaaaaaay it starts of slow to this beauuuuutoful wild twist of sound it's how the artist plays with the notes of it from low to high from slow to wild........

Him that one gorgeouuuuuuus Saxooophone I swear!!!!!

Owwwwh the name too vibes with all Him...!

Waking ups like this mooooood like this a viiiiiiibe of Him like this on a Youday!!!!!!

Some nights!!!!

 When you miss him like this on some special nights as this one with this state of mind or a himcoming kike this one and this one feeeeeel for him to be up too or sharing something away like it just is that need charlie to feeeeel away in the very moment itself that you aren’t the only one feeling it away…or missing away and since morning you’ve been that frequently literally checking him out on insta subah seee…..

With that one BIG hope even now with this missing growing to just live him away there ayyaaaaaaaaaa him in every frame and then to live away at that same space in that Dd picture of his from back 2015……the same lights the same space and him holding you dancing along dropping you on the floor…..

The same space where soon as you would come you talking to him there or this one time literally running to hold him away and as holding hugging him away he keeps saying areee there’s pandit that stays beside if he sees al this form the window his dharam would get spoiled and stuff and you just couldn’t get away from him…..

And keeps saying asking you to continue the hug in his room instead and you just wouldn’t move away from him and he in that same waaaaaaay and position hopping walking back to his room with you still hugging him takes you to his room instead….holding your butt away in some curves with his table right there in the passage and saying not worried about yours mera table bas math thodna kinda logic…..cause he didn’t want to show he still cared!!!!!

But that one moment in that same space like you just couldn’t move away didn’t want to move an inch away from him something’s you write and this feeeeeeeeeeeeeel right nowwwwww!!!!!!! N

He was THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT close!!!!!!!!