To just know!!!!

 From that moennt to just feeeeel that thing i just got that lucky!!!!!!

Like when you see around that essence of love somehow don't can't find much.....the way he loved you to live him bond you shared was different and beyond!!!!!

From that very moment to all your back you almost fepl asleep in the car with his music 0n.....which never really happens especially when it's just you on your own but you did that day it wasn't cause ofbthe crazy work schedule off late but was cause your heart you felt that content that very day right from the start......

Lived him in a way that way after longest of times which you longed for the most apart from the other zilluon things you missed him with and for, his randomness was also something you that bad missed and then to live it after that long you your hear just that happy and at peace.....

Only once you home first thing you see are packages and your mom mentions how do you even forget your own birthday month every single time like not mention it even for once.....that's when it really hits you that it's your birthday month also makes you smile away how even before it's the startvof October you just get that happy for his birthday.....

Though it's week away she decides to get avfew things thinking that's what you wanted.....if only!!!!!

One constant birthday gift i tell you that one wait!!!!!!

It was your first air Jordans the second you see it that one smile and she adds knowing it's your fav color now had to get this but there was a pastel and brown too but you like navy now.....and you couldn't help but say it out loud I love navy in your head it's him in a navy shirt playing on loop in that moemnt with thatsmile on.....to that next one being a F1 t shirt to the other one you see and that had Him all over it......apart from the other sweatshirts the one catches your attention was a powder blue Snoopy hoodie......

He used to address him as Snoopy in letters and cards when calling you bombi!!!!!

Something's nai charlie like it all had something of him in anyway the way evrything there before you had him in some way......like the second you see the hoodie it's his words am happppy like the happppy Snoopy rush through you and back it was on your birthday card......a beautiful ironically beautiful co incidence as this one.....after years there was the Snoopy he wrote bout right there!!!!!!