Tripswitch...

 U don't really need big big moments to change the course of your life or to add that touch of magic to a very ordinary day that you are going by with...

All you need is that sound is that hint that visual that one echo of something that you felt the strongest for in life and just like that out of nowhere the waaaaays you feel him away no matter this struggle to keep away from writing hoping you get a hold on this rush of missing just hoping hut the way it only gets this beautifully worse......

It's this constant struggle charlie like in some moments you feeeel him away that strongly like you literally just saw him right there form that very moment or heard him from that very moment in your very ordinary moment and the waaaaay it yranfroms evrything away and HOW!!!!!!

Its the you before that moment and the after and evrything outside around inside feels different.....kabhi nai bhot baaar lagta how still like this feeeel him away this much...

Specially this time around where there's this struggle to get over the beauty of the yesterday and to witness and live with the reality of the today.....

It's this stark contrast almost extreme way from that much love to this silence......this need to keep you away as best as he can!!!!!!

Then how do you still live feeel all this away why something in you just didn't stop like pause it right there and not continue to feel all this u did try a zillion times charlie but nai hora merse donno kyu no matter what your mind says your heart your soul the waaaay it feeels breathes through moments still feels him away and HOW is just beyond you yourself....

Nai hora merse and at the same time this missing this constant search for him to just see him charlie you have no idea how bad HOW BAD it is like your eyes constantly on that search in malls traffic constantly looking for that one sight of his in people in hairdos in chaddis white shirts and places name it and it's there.....why couldnt you just stop pause it like he did why wasn't that switch in you too.....to these dreams the waaaaaays he is there where there is the reality on one side there's that beauuuuty of him and his love for you that strongly there in all his glory!!!!!!

Theres sooooo much to write soooo many moemnts like off late it's a spark of magic in almost every other moment making you believe in something thats beyond this story line of reality that you are living through like it's the exact opposite to it...