SOME days part 3

 To this day today aaj kal the turns in sleeeep I sayy this beautiful....eevey turn aankh khuli and that need to see him for a bit and that one calm it fills you up with...is when you realise and relive the beauty of falling asleep happy the need to sleep happy with a happy heart the beauty of that is smthing else....

To the morning you wake up with that one dream of his some dreams and that same feeeeeeeling when you are sort of coming to terms with just being happy n content with this version of his that you are getting to live after the longestr of times and then he comes like this and that one feeeeeling same ditto feels every time after a dream like that one aisaaaaa kaikuuu aare tummmm.....some feels that badly put on hold and then you live him that waay ayyaaaaaaaa!!!!

Full zoomed in his beauuuutofullest details ayyaaaaaa that one beauty of him that sound of his voice that stare that one smile your pooora ka pooora life n everything in that one existence I say!!!!

Throufh the day mad work at the studio late lunches aaj kal like almost by 5, to the rush at the stores sourcing fabrics to on your way back the worst jam ever and yet that one feeeeeling charlie ayyyaaaaa it's juat LOVE!!!!

U see people around crowd around work around and then you loook at him there's your home that's your one corner that all of you belongs stays in and with.... It's that one beauuuutiful pull to just live him even amidst fittings work discussions just that one moment of sneaking away from itball still sitting there to just see him to live him for a bit no matter what.....it's that one smthinf that level of sukoon it fills you up with like you literally struggle to keep a straight face on and these are the times when you truly thank the mask on for....nobody knows nobody sees it :D

It's just you and Him in that lil moment of yours...

Finally home from a day like this one....and your mom sits with you for dinner cause it was pretty late today by the time you were home and the first thung she asks is would you say yes to smthinf she asks you to do but it wasn't bout interfering bout your way of life but smthinf else....and you just nod and say a yes.... As it was his fav bhindi dry for dinner today almost like seeinf eating him I say !!! Wrong 

Soooo yahhh!!!!

She asks you to fast on Thurs without food and salt too in the evenings and you just look at her to that she adds that she is well aware that you now fast only on shivratris but this one for her and then requests you for the same....and you nod again saying a yes and she goes on bout what not to eat no salt nothing tangy no sweet and no sex....and then that one oops moment when she looks you in the eye and apologises for the same holding you away....

It was the weirdest moment with her ever....cause in that moment strangely she felt bad for you....it was strange but her point of view maybe logical ..  

Its part of life, but for you it's anither one of the most beautiful parts bout Love...

Even be it for a moment lived with him your first n only it's always been him not just for that but anything to everything that comes with Love n life, Him....

It's like you can't see it feel it life it without Him...

Today in that moment tooo the sec she says that that one moment with him!!!!!

Smthings you don't wanna write exactly why you don't wanna write this moment this feeeel !!!!!

Mixed feeels tootally!!!!!