Long long time...

10 years is not a joke its a long long time charlie.....

its that thing that one sudden moment of smthing and you just feel proud not sure why or how....

but you just do imagine times when people struggle to hold onto anything at all in life and in this you actually managed to love and grow with love with the same one right from that very start of the sec that made you feel this is what they call Love... He is Love...!

ever since that first start to today.....

definitely not a joke and for nothing at all !!

where youve grown loving him more despite of living his absence more than his presence for years now....

now you are just finding a way to not go back to that box of hope from here on...

no one ever said it would be this hard!

shouldve stayed as friends only at least that way you wouldnt have lost your only best friend too !!

or bester wouldve been as his sister.........!

never been this weirdly numb ever before.....

like you cant say a thing feel a thing now.......

its this weird blankness cant feel a thing !!!!!!

this weird feeeling when you realize it actually did happen for real......