Saturday 12 October 2019

High on Him...

people do get high on many things be it love stufffff money success fame and all that jazz but there is that beautiful your first and only high that youve ever felt lived loved and grown loving with - Him...

like it has been there before you even knew something like getting "high" did exist or there was smthing by that name too.....

again smthing you did learn only with and from him getting high n all !!

and only now with years of his absence and growing used to living him with eyes closed this one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel it leaves you with everytime you wake  up now....

/no wonder that need to sniff his presence away just so it stays with you like that only thing that stays with you smthing of his presence in his absence, his smell even much after the waking up..... like also the thing that makes you feel more sane.....

like you are not or totally lost it for having felt him all this while lived his presence even with your eyes shut.... almost every morning....

it just connects charlie smthing that youve strongly felt through the day or lived a moment random simple most momemnt and missed him like the oether day  to notice a new flavor cadburys silk the salted caramel one and the sec you see it that one adooooooorable him the waaaaaaaaay hejust knew youll have it only after he has tried it knowing his love for it even from a distance iwth him being in bangalore.....

like the sec you see the new pack that one him that one strong feel of him and the same nite dream of him pretty close to what and how you felt in that moment...... again skipping wiriting it away for obvs reasons.....

it just connects that beauuuuuuutifully !!!!!!!!!!

to those very start days with him when to just live his presence used to give you that different beautiful version of happiness.....

like you could go by the day days your life just by staying there before him and living his presence evry lil beauuuuuuutiful detail of him.... and feel that high feel that smthing that makes you that happiest calmest and also mostly wanting to eat him up and yet stay a lil far and jst live his presence away instead......

smthings you write and exactly why you stay away from witing after writing it out now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exaaaaaaaaaaaactly why !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

soooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exaaaaaaactly why !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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