What to what !!

its this state of mind that you come back home with.....

even as you relive it all and write now....... 

or on your way back your mom still talking bout smthing you lost in your own lil world of him in your mind....

just looking back through the day lilst of moments and findings wondering how did you even miss out on seeing them before...

and after all these years it had to be just today of all the days dates on the calendar....

and to just find it now after years and in this way the waaaaaay it just changed it all for you !!

this feeeel now smthing did make this year this special......

wohi maloom hai one thing hota naii and then when you live that time gap in moments like these and ekdum se realize wowwww 10 years haan !!!!!

chutki mein pyaar change ho jaata and ek ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa whoooooo cutieeeeeeeee ka pyaaar i say !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

even today as you live him through those lilst of things and  relive him the waaaaaaay it all feels like it was a day or two like its just been a day or two since you last lived that actual moment.....

like it wasnt that long smtimes when you write and relive it in your mind and suddenly dont even know how or what to call it as !!!!!!

this whole thing this one lil world that you live in your mind live through these moments in a way do make up for his absence....

and HOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

even on his birthday did leave you with the most beautiful lil gifts i say...

his music and his words both together...!