usku nai hai mein wish karnaa door bhej diyaaa then merku kaikuuu like whyyy the fckkk itttaaaaaaaa farakkkk padaaa !!!!!!!!
like the sec the clock strikes 00:00 21st October ussiii sec se that one knotted feeeling inside....
cause you knewwwwww you wouldnt be able to wish him with that strict intruction of his of no mails too ab thoo......
and that neeed to just get it out and you do yahaa....
see him on whstapp hear him and jsut be there for a bit and get off.....
play his music loud and do your best to get some sleep like lietrally shut your eyes tight just sooooooooooo you could sleeep and meet him wahaaa and of all the days kalichhh nai aya uneee.....
like you struggled waited the longest hoping this nap mein nai thooo next one mein ata....
nai hua.....
finally up really late and that need to take the day off.....
and jjust when you thought you will keep the day just for yourself your mom decides to give some kaam for the cleaning bit and stuff for diwali.....
as you sort out your wardrobe and stuff you find these diwali lights which was to be put up in like 2 days or smthing....
the sec you see the lights and that one jump of khushi on the inside why not today why not noww nowwwww wala nowww cause mere cutieeeee ka bithrday hai aaj.....
like that was the first lil scream that screamed through you the sec you spot the lights....
as you were putting up and you just hummm ur fav saathiya ye tuneeeeeeeee kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that beautiful coincidence cause that song too comes up with she realizes he loves her and lights up her house to show him that she loved him tooo.... and with the him conection more now with the song and what better day to light up than today....
cause him walking in your life did light it up and HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was like you were living in this small lil happy world inside your head which was waaaaaaaaaaay beyond and far awaaaay from the actual reality running through your life.....
like it was that one extreme beautiful happy lil world of yours inside your head....
lilst of moments and that feeeeeeeeeeeel of khushiii ekdum seeee.....
his music playing that beuatiful chill of october in the air this same time around that beauuuuuuuutiful start of it all and sec by sec it was transforming you nd your life away - HIM !!!!!!!!!!!
his birthday the love day this whole month was just the beginning of Him in your life...
lil did you know howwwwwwwwwww and the waaaaaaaaaaaays you your life would be transformed...
ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one adoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorable most annoying beautiful lil big thing i say !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
once the lights were up like through that process living him with every blink of an eye his music playing smelling that beauty of October in the air and by the time you were done with the lights you were all him just that beauuuuuuuuuutifully him.....
and there was no waaaay you could just go on with the usual.....
when that one transfomation happens charlie like from smthing to becoming Him like you can feel that sense that change within you moment after moment and by the time you wee done with that work there is that beautiful need to just be away from it all and closer to him.....
like its just that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him n you....
nothing else no one else just that feeeeeel and you !!!!!!!!!!!!
liek you know feeeeel yourself off and away to everything Him...
and you finally take out that Him treasurechest of yours.....
every year this time of the year to take it out dust it away and go through those lil traces of him.....
and today of all the days and after 10 years you find things that you dint all these years.....
where this year you already were looking forward for that special thing of his birthday this year being all the more special the love day being all the more special finally a decade and lil did you know of all th years this year !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
smthings you write nd this feeeeeeeeeling now after writing it sholdnt have even thought or mentioned it.....
like it just stops with this sudden shift of mind !!!!!!!!!!!
like you cant type that weird feel of not being able to write....... a word more !!
like the sec the clock strikes 00:00 21st October ussiii sec se that one knotted feeeling inside....
cause you knewwwwww you wouldnt be able to wish him with that strict intruction of his of no mails too ab thoo......
and that neeed to just get it out and you do yahaa....
see him on whstapp hear him and jsut be there for a bit and get off.....
play his music loud and do your best to get some sleep like lietrally shut your eyes tight just sooooooooooo you could sleeep and meet him wahaaa and of all the days kalichhh nai aya uneee.....
like you struggled waited the longest hoping this nap mein nai thooo next one mein ata....
nai hua.....
finally up really late and that need to take the day off.....
and jjust when you thought you will keep the day just for yourself your mom decides to give some kaam for the cleaning bit and stuff for diwali.....
as you sort out your wardrobe and stuff you find these diwali lights which was to be put up in like 2 days or smthing....
the sec you see the lights and that one jump of khushi on the inside why not today why not noww nowwwww wala nowww cause mere cutieeeee ka bithrday hai aaj.....
like that was the first lil scream that screamed through you the sec you spot the lights....
as you were putting up and you just hummm ur fav saathiya ye tuneeeeeeeee kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that beautiful coincidence cause that song too comes up with she realizes he loves her and lights up her house to show him that she loved him tooo.... and with the him conection more now with the song and what better day to light up than today....
cause him walking in your life did light it up and HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was like you were living in this small lil happy world inside your head which was waaaaaaaaaaay beyond and far awaaaay from the actual reality running through your life.....
like it was that one extreme beautiful happy lil world of yours inside your head....
lilst of moments and that feeeeeeeeeeeel of khushiii ekdum seeee.....
his music playing that beuatiful chill of october in the air this same time around that beauuuuuuuutiful start of it all and sec by sec it was transforming you nd your life away - HIM !!!!!!!!!!!
his birthday the love day this whole month was just the beginning of Him in your life...
lil did you know howwwwwwwwwww and the waaaaaaaaaaaays you your life would be transformed...
ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one adoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorable most annoying beautiful lil big thing i say !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
once the lights were up like through that process living him with every blink of an eye his music playing smelling that beauty of October in the air and by the time you were done with the lights you were all him just that beauuuuuuuuuutifully him.....
and there was no waaaay you could just go on with the usual.....
when that one transfomation happens charlie like from smthing to becoming Him like you can feel that sense that change within you moment after moment and by the time you wee done with that work there is that beautiful need to just be away from it all and closer to him.....
like its just that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him n you....
nothing else no one else just that feeeeeel and you !!!!!!!!!!!!
liek you know feeeeel yourself off and away to everything Him...
and you finally take out that Him treasurechest of yours.....
every year this time of the year to take it out dust it away and go through those lil traces of him.....
and today of all the days and after 10 years you find things that you dint all these years.....
where this year you already were looking forward for that special thing of his birthday this year being all the more special the love day being all the more special finally a decade and lil did you know of all th years this year !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
smthings you write nd this feeeeeeeeeling now after writing it sholdnt have even thought or mentioned it.....
like it just stops with this sudden shift of mind !!!!!!!!!!!
like you cant type that weird feel of not being able to write....... a word more !!
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