Right frm the start...

this habit of his back then on some days when he would miss you even in your presence....

like the sec you get in the car and that one look of his and you know that strongly that he'd been missing you all that while and in your presence tooo the way you could just see it in him all the way till opera the way he just would live your presence and sometimes when you go closer the way he would move a bit and instead live your presence as he drives.....

is when you know he was misssing you a lot more itttaaaaa ki he wnated to live your presence where he could see you more......

and on those days he would play all you like right from the start any song to every song related to you...... and ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa you should seee his face charlie as the song plays ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuty of my life i say !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

is when your heart used to literally jump out and get stuck with and over his face.....

literally that same kinda vibe n feeeel the sec you see ehim that way or anyway actually !!!!!!!!!

heart jump skip and stuck on him i say !!!!!!!!!

ever since !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

soooooooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!

on those days his usual habit of playing it all about you and with him soon years now you did grow used to that same habit of his.....

on some special days to play it all him and live it all out Him...

like last nite when you lierally struggled to keep your mind off that feeeeel of being pushed away from wishing too quite literally......

and trying to get over or not think of it at all !!!!!

there is that thing charlie of distance....

its there this evidently there for years now.... and for months now all te more clear now !!

and yet there is that thing called acceptance too.....

you know thats the reality but you prefer to ignore it like you know not give it a thought at all....

hoping wiating this feeeling tooo goes away with time....

and then there are moments days or dates like these that bring back that feeling all the mroe zor seee....

wheere you cant ignore escape or hide away from.....

last nite was one of those dates days....

and to make it better usual his music playing loud and just be going through all his pictures.....

and this one pic from that first meet to his otehr house on yoru way back clicking him awaaay him as usual shying smtimes screamign smtimes or pushing your hand away just so you dont take a pic of his......

and your usual as if only !!!!!!!

and you go with it waiting for that one sec of moment when his full focus gets on the road and you on Him jsut so you get that one click of his.....

and in those few hidden moments and clicks this one pic of the track playing.......

again his way of saving up moments and you now doing the same with that thing always on your mind not sure when you would see him again.....

last nite those pics of his living those moments echo of his chuckles away his usual dhamkiii ek aur baaar click kariii thoo utaaar detu tujhee.....

the waaaaaaaaaaaaaay he used to almost enjoy that whole process.....

from those initial few secs of knowing you were now lost in him and that one smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee on him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa heart jump skip out n stuck on him moment.....

to that beautiful whisper of his saying shuruuu hua teraaa fir se.....

smthings again the waaaaaaaaaaaay he just knows bout you that wellll like that wait in him knowing you that well that any moment now you would do your most loved thing living Him...

and as you do that one beauuuuuuuuuuuutiful transformation of his to just feeel you live his presence.....

like you cuold seeeee him transform that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutifully charlie.....

from those casual smiles chuckles to that one beautiful smile that slowly transforms all of him away and that beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutifully......

the way he would move a bit watch you a lil and that one nod ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee tummmmmmmm ittteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee zorseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yaaaaaaaaaaad aaaayeeeeeeeeeee abiiiiiiiii k abiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!