this thing again only when you realize it now after years.....
it never was bout fav color or that smthing fav on you ever before Him in your life....
but with Him as just like the many other lilst of things too this too did happen...
his love for whites on you and your madness level love i say of whites on him to this extent that most of your dreams of him have him wearing smthing white be it shirt t shirt of even white chaddis......
cause it did start wit him wearing proper proper shirt for teh first time was in white n blue striped shirt of his.....
and that was you for the first time feeling living someone that way for the very first time.... and ever since then it has always been him.... watching a guy to a level of adoring feeling someone look that beautiful that handsome that good looking that you cant take your eyes off and the thing that made him look always look that much more beautiful was the way he would watch you living that beauty of his......
with that one smileeeeeeeee on him like he was allowing you to live him that way like you know just standing there and letting you live his beauty without interrupting you not saying a thing nothing at all just letting you live him live that moment to the fullest.... with just that one beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutifully adoooooorable smile on him just watchng you live him.....
like from there on to realizing how much he loved white on you much later on.......
to jsut a few days back when there was those fancy pre diwali party by a bridal client of yours leaving for abroad and insists you come......
and prolly after years now actually make that effort of gettin dressed......
when looking fo rwhat to wear it had to be one of those things that you strongly felt that very morning living his presence in a white n black t shirt again......
like that one vsiual of his stayed through the day and when looking you pick another one of those things that you had got made to wear it with him last year.....
a white floral anarkali kinda thing with his same white chudidar from back then.....
the sec you wear it that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel when you look at yourself when you wear anything of his..... cause now these are the things that you call his now.... anything that has smthing anything of him be it the color vibe memory or just that feel of his.... and then you look at yourself in the mirror that complete feeeeeeeeeel that comes with it is SOMETHING else !!!!!!
like from the wavy hair that just dosnt get straight now to it looking much browner now again smthing that he liked and wanted one of our own to have the hair as....... to the nude lip color to wearing flats like its all the lilst of details of dressing up cause you dont anymore.....
and that evening just when those lil details lilst of them weere making you feel him all the more......
its that process charlie his music playing dressing up like these things were only bout heading out to see him and when yyouve done that only in that specific way and then after years do it jus randomly that feeeeeeeeeel that state of mind stays with you somehow.....
its like the brain sort of automatically starts to visualize anticipate with that clueless feel of looking forward for a future possible moment on that very day..... like you know after this that kinda thing that runs through your mind subconsciously.....
like you dont do with intention but like your brain is in that automode of heading out to see him as you get ready and is why you are getting ready kinda still no logic kinda logic.....
sooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to jsut see yourself become him being him is a kind of happiness thats beyond words.... as its not completely happiness or being very happy and excited kinds but that one beautiful calm state of happiness jus looking atyourself become him in the mirror......
how one detail to the other of yours were soon becoming him to being completely him now over the years.....
again when you come back home and save the day away with pics and actually write the words down and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeel as you were writing down the details of metting him seeing him for the first time on that day ist what follows after !!!!!!!
soooooooo yahhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!
like you just had to the way todays dream themoments through the day or last few days made you feel like.....
saving the last few days away finally !!!!!!
the being him after years in white, trying the most delicious wine for the first time and a lil happy high just to feeeel watch becoming Him...
it never was bout fav color or that smthing fav on you ever before Him in your life....
but with Him as just like the many other lilst of things too this too did happen...
his love for whites on you and your madness level love i say of whites on him to this extent that most of your dreams of him have him wearing smthing white be it shirt t shirt of even white chaddis......
cause it did start wit him wearing proper proper shirt for teh first time was in white n blue striped shirt of his.....
and that was you for the first time feeling living someone that way for the very first time.... and ever since then it has always been him.... watching a guy to a level of adoring feeling someone look that beautiful that handsome that good looking that you cant take your eyes off and the thing that made him look always look that much more beautiful was the way he would watch you living that beauty of his......
with that one smileeeeeeeee on him like he was allowing you to live him that way like you know just standing there and letting you live his beauty without interrupting you not saying a thing nothing at all just letting you live him live that moment to the fullest.... with just that one beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutifully adoooooorable smile on him just watchng you live him.....
like from there on to realizing how much he loved white on you much later on.......
to jsut a few days back when there was those fancy pre diwali party by a bridal client of yours leaving for abroad and insists you come......
and prolly after years now actually make that effort of gettin dressed......
when looking fo rwhat to wear it had to be one of those things that you strongly felt that very morning living his presence in a white n black t shirt again......
like that one vsiual of his stayed through the day and when looking you pick another one of those things that you had got made to wear it with him last year.....
a white floral anarkali kinda thing with his same white chudidar from back then.....
the sec you wear it that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel when you look at yourself when you wear anything of his..... cause now these are the things that you call his now.... anything that has smthing anything of him be it the color vibe memory or just that feel of his.... and then you look at yourself in the mirror that complete feeeeeeeeeel that comes with it is SOMETHING else !!!!!!
like from the wavy hair that just dosnt get straight now to it looking much browner now again smthing that he liked and wanted one of our own to have the hair as....... to the nude lip color to wearing flats like its all the lilst of details of dressing up cause you dont anymore.....
and that evening just when those lil details lilst of them weere making you feel him all the more......
its that process charlie his music playing dressing up like these things were only bout heading out to see him and when yyouve done that only in that specific way and then after years do it jus randomly that feeeeeeeeeel that state of mind stays with you somehow.....
its like the brain sort of automatically starts to visualize anticipate with that clueless feel of looking forward for a future possible moment on that very day..... like you know after this that kinda thing that runs through your mind subconsciously.....
like you dont do with intention but like your brain is in that automode of heading out to see him as you get ready and is why you are getting ready kinda still no logic kinda logic.....
sooooooo yahhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to jsut see yourself become him being him is a kind of happiness thats beyond words.... as its not completely happiness or being very happy and excited kinds but that one beautiful calm state of happiness jus looking atyourself become him in the mirror......
how one detail to the other of yours were soon becoming him to being completely him now over the years.....
again when you come back home and save the day away with pics and actually write the words down and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeel as you were writing down the details of metting him seeing him for the first time on that day ist what follows after !!!!!!!
soooooooo yahhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!
like you just had to the way todays dream themoments through the day or last few days made you feel like.....
saving the last few days away finally !!!!!!
the being him after years in white, trying the most delicious wine for the first time and a lil happy high just to feeeel watch becoming Him...
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