Sound of him!!!!!!

 Is it even normal to feeeeel this way away everytime there’s a visual of him even years after now!!!!!

Like after al these years to still feeeeeeeeeeel this rush over his presence just like you used to back then seeing him for the first time for that day like under your apartment waiting outside the gate and you always used to bend down a lil to take a first look at him just to live that feeeeeeeeeeel of his presence and the waaaay he would do that too to watch you live him and that nod with that chuckle just watching you live your moemnt……the second you are in the car him asking why do you do that that khushi on your face knowing it’s the same me and same car you’ll be getting in and even then bahar khade rekke kyaa dekhti bey tu….

It’s that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel charlie to stand a lil away and live your ultimate moment of joy knowing this person is yours and how it feels to just live them their details from far and feeeeeeeel that vibe of how LUCKY did u just get!!!!!

And every single time single day that feeeeeeeeel of living him his beautyyyyy of smiiiiiling away that smile the waaaaaaay he just looked that beauuuuuuuuutoful smiling that one happy smile away be it then those days or last night too whilst working…

Why can’t budget photographers too know how to edit the only one inside scream running right now!!!!

Having to sit on the edits with lil cold now it’s like by the end of the day the mind gets a lil foggy cause there’s too much on edit on these with the set being of different dirtyyy yellow tone to toning it down to sandstone color to set with the outfits……taking too much of your mind away and then there’s that leisure of playing his music and slowly drifting to all things him and you leave the work and just lay on the floor letting yourself feeeeeel away all things him and this one thing charlie everytime now you lay down on the floor that one visual of him over him living his details away and the waaaaaaaaaay he slowly moves as you feeeel touch and live his details away and doesn’t even blink once looking you in the eye as you get high on him and call him you are beautiful and that one chuckle to lil smile everything bout him in that moment that beauuuuuuuutifully transforms that one meeeet at his Dd space…….

Soooooooooooooooo yaaaahhhhhhhhhhh everytime you sleep this way now that one visual of him zoooomed in closest possible rushes through you…

To this strange dream of you sitting in the car already and he rushes in screaming I missed you mannnnnn  and you don’t first make sense of why what like in your mind it was like but I’ve always been here like how did he even miss you suddenly…..him in this navy collared r shirt and micro shorts possible and you check him out instead and the waaaaay he says again screams rather shriyaaaaa I missed you mannnn and that wakes you up…

Cause it’s never been Shriya from him even in the start it’s been karkera to karelyy to kurkuri to bombiii to bubbles to cookiepie to zillion things more but never Shriya…

And the waaaaaaaaaay with that high intensity missing he screams out your name and telling you he missed you shakes and wakes you up…

Apart from everything else that one feeeeeeeeeeel of hearing your name from him like him calling you out that feeeeeeeel hits different with goosebumps instant……

And you try to go back to sleep like literally pushing yourself to go back to sleep just so you could hear him continue further like why was he missing you when you’ve been there only like you had to get that doubt resolved or ask him kinda madness in that moment and mood it was…….

To waking up and no other dream like that missing stayed on cause you couldn’t touch him hold him feeel him and the waaaaay that missing from him shifted to you and howeeeee!!!!!!

It’s just been his unblock on insta not even on WhatsApp and the kind of dreams you’ve been having lately like he has talking for once is something else!!!!!!!!

To be able to live him as and when you can want to miss him to is almost a privilege almost after all these years of sneaking on others phones to live him….

To realising after your sisters birthday yesterday it’s his sisters birthday day to another memory of the same it’s been different kinda missing today it’s definitely high but just feels this beautifully different……

Getting in the workout HAD TO for sure to fill up that missing and whoowwwwwwwwwee to feeeeeel him on your skin like this to move along dance along with you the way you feeeeeeel him on your arms waist neck and hair that hold of him like he used to holding your hair to get you closer to him it was MADNESS!!!!!!!

It’s that need to write out how and ways you felt him today and also sounds absolutely insane writing out cause that’s how strongly you feel him in moves……

Like you are that hiiiiiiiiigh on him that happppppy with the rush like post shows on you that evident like your face is red neck down…….it’s that feeeeeel charlie that goes beyond jsut loving someone living someone missing someone it’s to live their details strongly enough to be able to still live them feel them when this kinda strong missing hits you!!!!!!!!

Like sooooooooooooooo high on him even now to be able to still hear that sound of him screaming I missed you!!!!!

To these words lately that you’ve been loving on this apge cause it that aptly fits your mood lately!!