HIM!!!!!!!!!

Aaj ka realisation: you’ve become such a howwwwrat nai when it comes to all things him!!!!!!  

It’s that sudden touch sense feeeeel scent of him yesterday to that spotting of that MOST looooved circle over him woh bhi on a Sunday and you ofc had to see and it was bout yo yo his work and not him him kinda story of anything him or his music ……….and that another realisation checking on Netflix the upcoming section every other day to see if the same is released yet to that another feeeel every single time of his work not having seen his blue canvas…

To much later sleeping to the sound of cigarettes and every time you hear any track of this band that one recall of the scent of his cigarettes and how from hating the smell of cigarettes to now being another of those loved scents because of him…cause the way everytime you smell it anywhere it brings him along and that ishhhhhhtyyyyle of his to smoke ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that was also one of those things that you loooooved bout him…

To this blank morning today with no sighting of him like that weird restless feeeeeel and you had to get in with a stretch initially and in an instant that THAAAAAAAAT one feeeeeeeeeel of him charlie everytime I swear and that one strong strong wish to do it for real with him…the exact same moves to feeeeeeeel him along for real for really REAL!!!!!!

To the after like there was some track that your mind trips on and the waaaaaay of all the visuals it brings along that one visual of him at his Dd place…..where for some reason to just irritate him as you looooooved seeeeing his expression when you used to do something randomly stupid and him screaming away in that adooooooorable tone of his voice…for some reason you do these turns on his bed clockwise anti clockwise like wanting him to say yes to something and the waaaaaaaaay this one time after watching you laughing away at you cscreaming awaaaay that adoooooorably he with a straight face leans over you and holds you by your hair and pulls your face closeeer to his and just one look in the eye…….and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaay it zooooooop bolkeeee switch away everything in you and that one instant transformation of the mood of the viiiiibe I say……and you try to go closer to chummi him just the waaaaaaaay he looks that sexxiiiiiillllyyyyy gorgeous in that moment closest to you and as you go closer to chummi him the waaaaaaaay he drops you and starts chuckling awaaaaay that adoooooooooorably saying again am telling you Tera pooora remote control hai mere haaath mein howli……

And you get off him still chuckling chummi him and he still continues to chuckle away even as you chummi him……and that holding you by your wait even as he laughs away as you chummi him but that him holding you from the back does it for you!!!!!!!

SOME MOEMNTS and this feeeeeeeeeeeeel even years after just reliving it now again as you write…..

Like today working on move this moment rushes through you with some track playing and akele akele from goosebumps to laughing away akele akele over his adooooorableness!!!!!

THIS THIS this missing lately ayyyyaaaaaaaaa like it comes smoothly gently initially and that hit that one solid RUSH of him that takes you off and away like surfing under a giant wave not over it…zooooop bolke!!!!!!!

This missing now change of pace change of viiiiibe!!!!!!!

It’s that realisation every single time seeing yourself post this missing rush the way it shows on your face and that beauuuuuuuty in just living these moments of him in your most loved tome of the day……. 

Him that gorgeous GORGEOUS form of Magic, in human form…!

Like waking talking breathing form of Magic!!

Sing miiiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa HOWEEEEEEEEE only!!!!!!