words!!!!!

 Some words the second you write and as you write and relive this feeeel a memory can leave you with!!!!!

That one quote somehow felt the same and more!!!!!

To the number of pillows surrounding you when him at your place on mahashivratri for you and asks you dheere in ishaara which pillow was yours and yow show him the corner one and that very second takes it and rests over it asking again you use two pillows how can someone and as he says that rests over it eyes closed that very next second pappppaaaaa merku bhi doo pillow honaa and even asks his suster to try it but takijg some other pillow from there and that one smileeee on him to just live something of yours.....

It's the way he loved charlie that made you love him more that made you learn bout love and loving more...

The next time at his place and he did get two pillows and that adooorably shows it over saying see just like yours !!!!!

Lilst of things bout you he was making his wanting to make his...and watching him do that watching him love you the way he was made you love him more made you understand what it's like to love and be loved...

Howleeeeeee likteee likteeee yaad karte kartee ekdum sudeen seee zoooorseeee yaaad aaaare miyaaaa!!!!!!

From a dream like the one today to suddenly being hit with that lonely vibe thanks to some really senti hindi song playing at the cafe to just findijg your Sunshine moment of his!!!!!

Know it's wrong know you shouldn't be and you try hard not to you struggle and do your best just so you don't but her fone was waaaay too long before you is all you could think of!!!!!

And eveytine you write it out you suddenly feel horrible like in your mind it still was your lil secret but once you write it out and read it as you write it just feels horrible....

But ab kyaaa karna samaj nahi ata sochee tho ok no more the waaaay he comes in the dreams it feeeels so right with less of rushes theoufh the day now as it slowly subsides its back to the dreams now it's like it's there to keep reassuring you he is yhere to reassure you of his love even with all the shitty side of the reality running sidetrack mein....