Smthings!!!!

 There has been this shift of smithing lately that you couldn’t make sense of those sudden rushes like suddenly there are shakes of missing that you feel out of nowhere that was strongly that strongly making you feel like for once he was missing you more than you those in the afternoon those early morning rushes that literally shakes you up from the sleep and you are all up wondering what it was bout like there’s always been no hold on you when it comes to anything him but recently it’s definitely felt very very different and you couldn’t make any sense of it!

Works been hectic planning designing managing staff and zillion other things and then there were these rushes that sort of would hold you away from everything else and you that lost still wondering what’s happening!!

Some call to be made to the carpenter and your fone batt almost dead ask for your managers to fone call and then that need to first see him wondering hoping he is okay and check his gram and that one most loved circle first to hit to see him and there were images of some iconic fancy cars the location read some talin it was a foreign location that first feeeeel ayaaaaa ineeee itttaaaaaaaaa dooor Gaya....that mixed feel of pride could be his movie and also that feeel that doooor not that him in Hyderabad was any closer to you but smthings nai they have their own logic and trust me Charlie most of the things to do with him in life in your head have their own logic!

That will hopefully make some sense some day...

Soooo yaaaah from that feeeel to again when she leaves her fone on the table again and that same need to see again and this time that one line The Dream does it for you!

Smthings nai smthings only prolly was the same day when you felt lived that dream on your skin with that same colour of his love..... from the dream to that living proof of reality on your hand!

There were pics charlie of the clouds and camera the way living those details of his somehow madly obnoxiously made you felt a lil less lunatic for having these feels living these moments of his This strong like you weren’t the only one...

Where if you do add logic to it which one shouldn’t matters of love but if you do made no sense like why the lock if there’s still love but there is love and the way again it felt like he loves you more than you...

Ass crazy madness lunatic as it sounds the way all these changes recently only made more sense that sudden bout of fever that same thing like back then him in Bangalore Bombay you down with fever with that initial hit of distance suddenly.....

That same feel after years you felt this time not sure if it was hectic work schedule or to think of it now it was Him...

Maybe when you feel smthings this strong in you in your gut and heart you are definitely not the only one feeling it, distance never really mattered after all...

The way he is just there charlie it just feels all this feels this beautifully different and to write it all out now to just be able to say it out is why smtines you love writing it out cause it’s your only way to hear yourself out as nobody nobody would make sense of all this what’s this why is it the way it is!