First time!!

 First time for the first time charlie in all these years today was the first time you weren't scared not even a bit like after bup today being first day to message him you just weren't scared.....

At your friends place for some shaadi function and sit your own corner away from people very few but that precaution thing you stay in one corner also to just be on yur own this being a formality thung cause after this you won't be attending any others.....

Music sound of his music where they being all telgu actually play his lucky Ali's song plus the whole vibe of mirrors around the setting of the place you wearing his white....it was that whole vibe today a bus passing by of some college with no students but that memory of being with him on some drive and this college bus passes by the girls one after the other look out the window your usual way of sitting close to him over his arm and shoulder and you try to move as they were looking at you.....he slows down the car that beauuuutifully to keep the pace up with the bus and holds you closer when you try to move away from him as they were watching....look up at him and that thaaaaat one smileeeeee charlie of his and nods away asking you not to move and just holds you closer and the way the girls start waving and you wave back !!!!!

Today as you sit tyere the college bus the mirrors around the music the whole vibe of that moment to the dream specially this mornjng it in a way strangely felt like he was calling out to you....

It was definitely your mind blame it on the moment the most beautiful insync moment day but in that moment you just had to message him donno why what you just needed to....the after was knowing he will block you if you did but pata nai charlie kya hua in that moment...

The waaaaay you just that intensely felt in that moment was different the bus moving slow you looking at thise big mirros around each one holding that one memory of his other some moment of his fkashes of him all arohnf you to that sound of his music.....take your fone send him a hi and just be...

Keep checkinf back scared to check back knowing he will block back....but aaj pata nai charlie first time dar nai laga kaise nai maloom bas nai laga!

Just felt so right in that moment!!