that wave that refused to change.....
this new thing bout brushing your hair striaght like youve been struggling ~!!!!!!!
like literally struggling cause it just dost stay put and this morning getting ready for work with his music playing and you standing before the mirror brushing your hair striaght and this one strand of hair springs back into a wave fataak see....
and that one lilst sec of strange happy moment that puts a smile on your face....
you cant change that bout you after all now !!
and you jsut let it be....
as wavy half starigt it wanted to be so be it.....
once out like its always been after waking up from dreams like these like you can just feeeeeel him that much more breathing rushing through you through the day.... no matter how much you hide away from your mind like its sjust that beuatifully there......
diff diff instances and that struggle to just ignore them and not flow with it..... like you were sort of in away training your own mind to get a hold on your self just so you could be normal again.....
like you know not feel pain hurt or that incomplete thing like to just be normal and be okay with it....
and these few instances today too and at this one store just bout to get out and you just see some guy standing outside the store navy shirt jeans with that beauuty of his daaaaaaaadi and that one saaaaaaaaaaaaaame smileeeeeeee o fhis through the daaaaadi that youd seen in the lift back then exact same face right outside and that very sec the song on the radio that very same sec yaad kiya dilne kaha ho tum plays.....
stay in the car live that moment of living him in your mind in that moment as the song plays.....
chuck the plan of going to the store and instead jsut some driving away not knowing where to go....
like you just wanted to be kahi biii not just get out and having to talk or do something and just be instead.....
look around and it happens many many times no matter where you look some similairty some moment that maes you feel he is standing there crossing the road dirivng by in the next car beside you or just at the corner table of the coffee shop working on the laptop and you just be living that moment with just that sense of smthing in you.....
maybe had a smile on too with just that feeel of him......
on your way bac home that feeeeel you cant fight run hide away from whats you....
from whats really you now !!!!!!!!!!!!!
so youll just roll with what and how it makes you feeel and jsut learn grow to be stronger cause in that moemnt for the first time in a long long time you felt stronger from within....
cause after those moments of thinking of living him in some random moments there was no missing really like you didnt feel that pain that thing bout how much you miss seeing him and were sort of just liivng and flowing with the reality now......
learning to live love the version of him that is with you...
and not look for hope for wait for the version that you dont know anymore.........!
this new thing bout brushing your hair striaght like youve been struggling ~!!!!!!!
like literally struggling cause it just dost stay put and this morning getting ready for work with his music playing and you standing before the mirror brushing your hair striaght and this one strand of hair springs back into a wave fataak see....
and that one lilst sec of strange happy moment that puts a smile on your face....
you cant change that bout you after all now !!
and you jsut let it be....
as wavy half starigt it wanted to be so be it.....
once out like its always been after waking up from dreams like these like you can just feeeeeel him that much more breathing rushing through you through the day.... no matter how much you hide away from your mind like its sjust that beuatifully there......
diff diff instances and that struggle to just ignore them and not flow with it..... like you were sort of in away training your own mind to get a hold on your self just so you could be normal again.....
like you know not feel pain hurt or that incomplete thing like to just be normal and be okay with it....
and these few instances today too and at this one store just bout to get out and you just see some guy standing outside the store navy shirt jeans with that beauuty of his daaaaaaaadi and that one saaaaaaaaaaaaaame smileeeeeeee o fhis through the daaaaadi that youd seen in the lift back then exact same face right outside and that very sec the song on the radio that very same sec yaad kiya dilne kaha ho tum plays.....
stay in the car live that moment of living him in your mind in that moment as the song plays.....
chuck the plan of going to the store and instead jsut some driving away not knowing where to go....
like you just wanted to be kahi biii not just get out and having to talk or do something and just be instead.....
look around and it happens many many times no matter where you look some similairty some moment that maes you feel he is standing there crossing the road dirivng by in the next car beside you or just at the corner table of the coffee shop working on the laptop and you just be living that moment with just that sense of smthing in you.....
maybe had a smile on too with just that feeel of him......
on your way bac home that feeeeel you cant fight run hide away from whats you....
from whats really you now !!!!!!!!!!!!!
so youll just roll with what and how it makes you feeel and jsut learn grow to be stronger cause in that moemnt for the first time in a long long time you felt stronger from within....
cause after those moments of thinking of living him in some random moments there was no missing really like you didnt feel that pain that thing bout how much you miss seeing him and were sort of just liivng and flowing with the reality now......
learning to live love the version of him that is with you...
and not look for hope for wait for the version that you dont know anymore.........!
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