last few days were tough like there was a point when you dint even know how to come out of it !!!!!
mom unwell and where the problem was gas the thing that usual takes up their mindspace is always major and this time it was some heart related thing that takes her mind up....
one thing leading to the other and you sure knew what was coming next.....
with day another day and days back who triggered that conversation with her still got no clue but when she asks you to sit down for a bit is when you know thats one loudest tunggg possible !!!!!!
one thing to the other senti talk holding you and before you know that one request she asks you for.... to get married like she says it in a more detailed way which you would rather avoid writing out.... but that one thing is all she wanted was where it ends......
like for the first time she asked you in that way and more so requesting you to !!
get off head to work get your manager to take care of the rest and head bak home immediately.....
prolly the same day or day before is when you again felt him in the most beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful way possible !!!!!!!!!!!!!
again not writing out for the reasons now.....
cause in your mind in your dreams the him you feel feels yours.... just yours.....
but the sec you start to write out now it all feels weird cause in this state you are still much awake.... like you know the reality of it !!
also the reason why you struggle to not write stay away from writing your own mind out......
feels ajeeb now......
soooooo yahhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!
like she gives you a week time to think over it.....
like this time for real....
and as days go by this weirder feeeling grows just lookin at her though it was just gas nothing serious but the way she asked you for smthing for the first time....
that weird helpless feeling for the first time...
only yesterday after the waking up again your mind again that beauuuuuuuutifully full of him....
through the day you just be home raining on n off and that weird state o fmind knowing two days more....
and this one thing your manager talked bout last week over some conversation that there is this belief that if you really want smthing like that bad you need to give smthing you love most food wise and make that wish or smthing that youll quit that one food thing for an year if it works....... you dont say or feel the need to comment anything more over it as it ws some random conversation....
only yesterday as she comes over with some work and stays at your place wit late work to finish and gets beer too..... and puts it aside and you just take it.... try beer for the first time level up i say.....
a sip and it actually tasted good like from breezer to budweiser progress i say but after last nite again never drinking beer again !!!!!!!!!
soo yaah and you ask her the thing she was talking bout quitting a food thing for an year making a wish of smthing does it all really work..... and she confirms saying it has worked for her 100 cent.....
and that very sec get off and head over to the terrace with some plumbing work on theyve had it open for days now.... head over and just be with his music close your eyes and the first food thing that you could see was rice.....
like you could do without anything at all anything what so ever non veg sweets chocs but this one thing is like one complete food meal for you - rice !!!!!
like kuch bhii khaalo rice nai khaaye tho its like meal incomplete i say.....
and that very sec you knew that was one thing that will be the most difficult to quit cause it also was that firs thing that popped in your mind with that wish ringing through you......
shut your eyes makes that wish and rice it was...
be there for a while and as it starts to rain head back home.....
mum still waiting and almost going to bed says that word that you were expecting hugging you away two more days till you decide.....
kaisaaaaaaaaaaaa aisaaaaa decide karo bolteeh when they already give you that limit to say a yes anyway.....
once done back to your room and that weirder feeeling gets worse as you were almost down a beer.....
that weirdly waaay more than just typsy ........
that one thing in your mind that you are stepping away from him like in your mind you still knew what you were going to do even if you took that step for her.....
like it would have definitely been just for her.....
cause in this life there was no waaaaaay it could be anybody else than him for you......
like you know it in you..... you know you when it comes to this aspect of your life that well !!!!!!!!!
blooody damn welll !!!!!!!
but that feeeeeling still there and when the second beer opens up and before you know she was asleep and you head out in your place with her phone and stuff still there.....
up the volume of his music and just be watching the rains.....
that one wish that strongly to just hear him once.....
before you have that talk with yoru mom today to just hear him once.....
keep living the rains and one look at your managers phone still there......
he wouldnt know anyway that its you it would just be one call to just hear him once before you take this step.....
to just hear him once.....
and the sec you take her fone to dial his number i swear charlie this only.......
unless you do smthin you dont really know the beauty of it merku aaaj tak mera number hee yaad nai rehta malooom like theres no number that i could possible remember and his number been a decade almost since youve dialled to call and the sec you actually do like it just goes.....
you dint even have to think or recall for a sec tak tak bolkeee you just dial off and not sure if it did ring or smthing but that one strong tungggg rings through you WHATS THE POINT !!!!!!!!
he could be with someone as it was an odd hour and the waaaay it all just felt that worse......
cut the call and just be !!!!!!!!
up teh volume of his music delete his number off her fone as she wakes up to the sound of music saying smthing walks out of your room and sleeps out instead....
stay for longer and to jsut get your mind off get on youtube to watch some doc and the first thing you see is my sassy girl song recom on the side......
moments like these you just donnooooooooooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just doonnooooooooooooooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mom unwell and where the problem was gas the thing that usual takes up their mindspace is always major and this time it was some heart related thing that takes her mind up....
one thing leading to the other and you sure knew what was coming next.....
with day another day and days back who triggered that conversation with her still got no clue but when she asks you to sit down for a bit is when you know thats one loudest tunggg possible !!!!!!
one thing to the other senti talk holding you and before you know that one request she asks you for.... to get married like she says it in a more detailed way which you would rather avoid writing out.... but that one thing is all she wanted was where it ends......
like for the first time she asked you in that way and more so requesting you to !!
get off head to work get your manager to take care of the rest and head bak home immediately.....
prolly the same day or day before is when you again felt him in the most beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful way possible !!!!!!!!!!!!!
again not writing out for the reasons now.....
cause in your mind in your dreams the him you feel feels yours.... just yours.....
but the sec you start to write out now it all feels weird cause in this state you are still much awake.... like you know the reality of it !!
also the reason why you struggle to not write stay away from writing your own mind out......
feels ajeeb now......
soooooo yahhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!
like she gives you a week time to think over it.....
like this time for real....
and as days go by this weirder feeeling grows just lookin at her though it was just gas nothing serious but the way she asked you for smthing for the first time....
that weird helpless feeling for the first time...
only yesterday after the waking up again your mind again that beauuuuuuuutifully full of him....
through the day you just be home raining on n off and that weird state o fmind knowing two days more....
and this one thing your manager talked bout last week over some conversation that there is this belief that if you really want smthing like that bad you need to give smthing you love most food wise and make that wish or smthing that youll quit that one food thing for an year if it works....... you dont say or feel the need to comment anything more over it as it ws some random conversation....
only yesterday as she comes over with some work and stays at your place wit late work to finish and gets beer too..... and puts it aside and you just take it.... try beer for the first time level up i say.....
a sip and it actually tasted good like from breezer to budweiser progress i say but after last nite again never drinking beer again !!!!!!!!!
soo yaah and you ask her the thing she was talking bout quitting a food thing for an year making a wish of smthing does it all really work..... and she confirms saying it has worked for her 100 cent.....
and that very sec get off and head over to the terrace with some plumbing work on theyve had it open for days now.... head over and just be with his music close your eyes and the first food thing that you could see was rice.....
like you could do without anything at all anything what so ever non veg sweets chocs but this one thing is like one complete food meal for you - rice !!!!!
like kuch bhii khaalo rice nai khaaye tho its like meal incomplete i say.....
and that very sec you knew that was one thing that will be the most difficult to quit cause it also was that firs thing that popped in your mind with that wish ringing through you......
shut your eyes makes that wish and rice it was...
be there for a while and as it starts to rain head back home.....
mum still waiting and almost going to bed says that word that you were expecting hugging you away two more days till you decide.....
kaisaaaaaaaaaaaa aisaaaaa decide karo bolteeh when they already give you that limit to say a yes anyway.....
once done back to your room and that weirder feeeling gets worse as you were almost down a beer.....
that weirdly waaay more than just typsy ........
that one thing in your mind that you are stepping away from him like in your mind you still knew what you were going to do even if you took that step for her.....
like it would have definitely been just for her.....
cause in this life there was no waaaaaay it could be anybody else than him for you......
like you know it in you..... you know you when it comes to this aspect of your life that well !!!!!!!!!
blooody damn welll !!!!!!!
but that feeeeeling still there and when the second beer opens up and before you know she was asleep and you head out in your place with her phone and stuff still there.....
up the volume of his music and just be watching the rains.....
that one wish that strongly to just hear him once.....
before you have that talk with yoru mom today to just hear him once.....
keep living the rains and one look at your managers phone still there......
he wouldnt know anyway that its you it would just be one call to just hear him once before you take this step.....
to just hear him once.....
and the sec you take her fone to dial his number i swear charlie this only.......
unless you do smthin you dont really know the beauty of it merku aaaj tak mera number hee yaad nai rehta malooom like theres no number that i could possible remember and his number been a decade almost since youve dialled to call and the sec you actually do like it just goes.....
you dint even have to think or recall for a sec tak tak bolkeee you just dial off and not sure if it did ring or smthing but that one strong tungggg rings through you WHATS THE POINT !!!!!!!!
he could be with someone as it was an odd hour and the waaaay it all just felt that worse......
cut the call and just be !!!!!!!!
up teh volume of his music delete his number off her fone as she wakes up to the sound of music saying smthing walks out of your room and sleeps out instead....
stay for longer and to jsut get your mind off get on youtube to watch some doc and the first thing you see is my sassy girl song recom on the side......
moments like these you just donnooooooooooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just doonnooooooooooooooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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