One of those days!

 When the day itself starts of with that beauuuuty of his and that THAT much of him and the sec you wake up it's like you can still feel him smell him feel his touch just can feeeel him no matter what you are doing it's just that THAT much of Him that you wake up with....

Day off cause of your friend and her wedding venue scouting and sorting thungs out for her....day now starts off with that first look at that big board right next to your new apartment that says anand silicon and in bold CHIP it's like anand small but silicon chip in bold it's that thing bout places lil findings words that you stumble across and it just rings smthinf in you..... smthing just clicks...that corner becomes yours cause again it's your way of filling up for all those places of His that you that badly miss passing by your way to work every single day....

That one word that one board is like smthing you wait to see or fill up all those places that you miss seeing of his....

To out with music through the day songs through the day at the venue over the radio with his music still playing one ear plugged in and yet these beautiful lilst of instances through your day and that need to live him in that very moment and most of which he was right there in that very moment with you.....in your mind with that rush that beauuuuuuuuuutiful rush from morning it was like he was right there with yiy standing beisde you with you in that very moment...

As mad crazy as it sounds even writing it now it just felt that much more beauuuutiful almost surreal....lilst of instances that made you feel his presence with sound or with your friend out of nowhere calling you cookie for fun and you ask her not to just that sound of the word and that one beauuuuuutifully adorable echo of his voice calling you in that one usual specific tone of his voice with that much love coooookiepieeeee hai meri tu....

And then wait for that nod from you to say a yes confirming yes you were waiting for that confirmation....or over the fone when drunk that first thing always coooookiepieeeee!!!!!!

Even as you write this very thing as you write and still can hear that echo of his voice same way calling you out.....it's that strange that pure madness you know but is just the way it is.....as you write coookieepieee that echo again of his voice right now that same way.....

Kaisaaa kya kyu nai maloom charlie kabiii samaj ni ata!!!!!!

Still how!!!!!!

Just is...

Just living those moments missing him that bad and then have him right there almost like he is with you.....was that bit of your just...happy mode!

Its that feeeeeeeeling charlie of some moments that make you relive and re miss fhat feeling that you almost forgot with this time gap now.....that feel of having beside you standing beside you close to you!

Today in those moments in those instances that moment was that for you...allowing you to recall re live and re miss that feeling of having Him beside you, with you...