How far!

 It's this feeeel charlie as you look back throuhf moments like these with that realisation bout how far you've come...

From that evening looking for that one black pathani thing for him at the exhibition with his sister to today designing creating smthing that cpuld fall closest to the feel of it......

When you visually live such moments it's like your entire life almost flashed through in that single sec as you live that visual in that moment!

From that first day morning of bup to this moment here that one long wait maybe tomo maybe tomo maybee tomo he'll come back...

Even in that longest conversation with your mom where it was just her talking, in that moment when from general she gets that direct asking you did he ever tell you even for a single sec or moment that he still loves you or wants you in his life cause if he did then spend another 10 or 20 years more waiting....it's upto you but if he didn't!

And that one pause after saying it all away...

Smthings nai charlie some logics you rather not think bout at all like that part of life and loving him you rather not think bout cause deep down you know there's no answer to that....and you better not let your mind wander to that!

But that day when you hear out loud that very same logic or reality of life it did shake up smthing in you in a bad or even worse way possible!

It just felt weird to hear it out !!!!

Agaim where moemnts you wish conversation you wish things you wish could run away from and then there are moments like the one today that sort of add that bit of meaning that bit of smthing to your life...to your day!

Just that smthing, that you can never define!!