His music...!

 There are these times charlie when you feel the most alone.....like the most worst alone sometimes!

It's just that worst!

In those times it's just that one play that one sec of being closer to his music and that very moment shutting your eyes away it's him n you, him with you in that moment no matter where you are what you are doing even in the most craziest of situations like in the middle of crossing of the road that one sudden visual thing or place it's him with you in that moment...

As crazy as this sounds like it just is the way it is...

Coming back home this time of every nite is like your most you time.....

Smtimes in your place or off late with it getting waaaaay too cold at nites it's the couch laying away smthing playing on tv or working with his music mostly it's thus time mind that slow him rushing on that slow speed throufh you keep living him on n off just the waaaaaaaaaay he looks this deliciously handsome in the current one.....it's that feeeeeling charlie hauuu nai no wonder ab aisaaa aisaaa dikheee tho waiseich hotaa phir!

Soooo yaaah 

Waking up with that touch with that feel that you missed him the nite before and it was just day before when you feel him his chummi in a different beauuuutifully different way...

This thing eveye singke time when you want to write smthing n then knowing u can't openly and also want to write....

When to just get the moment out missing out wins over so here goes.....

It's the waaaay his chummi felt different like he was nibbling away that beauuuutifully slow like keeps talikg those sec of breaks to maybe just look at you and then at it again....cause you just were living the moment again with that same fear what if you open your eyes n he disappears again!

That feeeeeeeeling you wake up with like still looking for him cause he the moment the chummi felt that real....his music still playing and that feeeeel that one magic of his music......

Again same thing kyaaa sochkeee bola when you miss me play my music you'll find me close to you everywhere...

Every single time all these years every time you've felt him that strongly and then woken upto find his music playing that beauuuutiful echo of his words....!

Satya vachan I say...

Smthings and just reliving the moment again.....howleeeeeeeeeeeee YOU were missed this very moment here !!!!!!!!!