To share...

 It's strange why crying is considered a sigh of weekness....

In that moment him crying wasn't a weakness it was that need to share of how broken he was and finally had someone he could share that with and he was sharing that most vulnerable side of his moment feeling of his with you.....

To you everytime you see him after that long gap that has you wondering he won't come back and then he does it's that end of missing it's that end of all those miments that you thought you won't be seeing him again and then to finally live him live his presence to just live that moment of his presence almost used to feel that dream like like as if tho you still were dreaming he was finally there you got to see him again....

It's when you lose hope and find it again when you never thought you would , the tears was all bout that!

It's also when you know that moment you have with him not sure if you would again!

It always used to be that one big mix of thoughts n feelings in that first moment you see him in.....

Smthings you write n this feeeeling now!!!!

Writing on nites like these whreee to whrreee only it's going !!!!!

Also why exactly why when your mind is this lost you prefer to just stay away from writing but tonite it just was getting weirder in the stomach I say! 

That notted feeling when youve been keeping away too many moments holding away too much waaaay too much missing and then a moment out of nowhere!!!!!