Once done !!

once the storm the damage was done the only thing that followed was how to deal with it !!

its that thing charlie the many times he asked you for a skype that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling lil does he know that one thing to just live him was smthing you lived in almost every corner of hyd to just find him somewhere to just see him somewhere nad there he was asking you the first time he does and knowing the distance between manikonda and home that one feeeeeel to just runnnnnn home !!!!!!!!!

to see him !!!!!!!

to the next version of feels !!!!!!

after knowing realizing how you couldnt see him dint wanna see him......

and the mins later you get back on whatsapp and still see him there he still dint block you that one thing one more time he asks you you just might end up saying a yes to skype and that you dint wantt tto......

there was that low down that weird wordless termless thing of that weird state of mind how do i always make him stay what do i do that he stays maybe thsi time maybe this time bolke saaalo nikal gaye..... with that one thing maybe this time he will stay !!

it was that needy state of mind that broken and yet happy knowing he atleast found his love for life.....

he has been through enough shit in his life and youve seen it seen him go through it and that one thing that you have always lived for was to see him happy in life... and he finally was and there was you the worst broken state second time again and that was something you dint wanna show him....

it would have been that weirdly awkard you still loving him living him living his details knowing he is not yours......

like that one thing in your life you thought still with the distance you strangely thought thanks to the dreams did think yours, wasnt.....

and you dint want to see visually live that side of the reality !!

and block him immediately and get off !!!!!!

home for the next week off everything else.....

like you just needed that time off to get normal again....

there were many realizations many changes you thoguht of changing and there was also that need to talk to someone out.....

like you couldnt deal with it.....

there was toooo much on the inside.....

and this manager of yours that handles work for you when you take this kinda off from work seemed perfect cause she knew nothing like not the compleete thing....

its that thing cause your other friend knew a lil more and this one was smthing knew nothing at all....

and you could stick with just you telling without being asked why or what kinda logic !!!!!!

lil did you know it was almost like talking to your own mind and finding a way out....

again why you did start this writing bit cause it strangely guides yoru way out of your mind.....

cause you literally see read your mind out here nd still wandering through the mind find your way out on most days....

if not all, on most of the days at least !!