changing the driver for teh zillionth of time as they dont drive safe enough to avoid the scratches around.....
and aaj bhi a new one and on your way when the driver keeps askign which turn to take next on your way back home....
and you keep saying the next one next one.... and that beauuuuuuuuty of him as you zone out for a sec......
back to when him dropping you back home in one of those meets after bup....
and as he dint know that house of yours and keeps asking you which lane to take next and you keep saying not yet not yet saying the right turn was far ahead and the waaaaaaay he just looks at you as you keep saying nahi aur aage aur aage and that one smileeeeeeeee with that signature all of you melting away nod of his says dekh bolru idhar he utaar detu.... soorat dekh im sure that right turn we crossed long back....
and like everything bout you this too he was that sure of just by your face.....
cause you did pass by that right turn to your house long back it was you living those few mins that you could possibly hold onto lviing him.....
and him not knowing where exactly your house was did serve as the biggest gift jsut so you could stay longer live him for longer.....
and just by your face again he knew was that sure of you jsut wanting to be with him for longer instead.....
today asyou keep saying its the next one that very moment that face of his that smileeeeeeeee of his that echo of his voice makes you smile the biggest and unnoticeable smile that dosnt goes unnoticed by your mom.....
and the way she says you smile the most beautiful smile when you are lost in your own mind.... that it actually makes her wonder who or what jsut crossed your mind....
is when you also realize this beautiful fact there is happiness like the ultimate one and then the rest are only the "versions" of happiness...
like you know there is that ultimate one like no other and the rest that you live through the day are just the versions of the term happiness...
to you it will always be Him...
no wonder makes you happy from the inside out like nothing else possibly could......
this lil world of Him that you live through, hidden away and inside of you !!
this feeeeeeeling now as you write and feel this misseeeing growing waaaaaaaaaaaaay worse than you already were.....
the waaaaaaaaaaaaay writing him makes it this beauuuuutifully worse than it already was !!
and aaj bhi a new one and on your way when the driver keeps askign which turn to take next on your way back home....
and you keep saying the next one next one.... and that beauuuuuuuuty of him as you zone out for a sec......
back to when him dropping you back home in one of those meets after bup....
and as he dint know that house of yours and keeps asking you which lane to take next and you keep saying not yet not yet saying the right turn was far ahead and the waaaaaaay he just looks at you as you keep saying nahi aur aage aur aage and that one smileeeeeeeee with that signature all of you melting away nod of his says dekh bolru idhar he utaar detu.... soorat dekh im sure that right turn we crossed long back....
and like everything bout you this too he was that sure of just by your face.....
cause you did pass by that right turn to your house long back it was you living those few mins that you could possibly hold onto lviing him.....
and him not knowing where exactly your house was did serve as the biggest gift jsut so you could stay longer live him for longer.....
and just by your face again he knew was that sure of you jsut wanting to be with him for longer instead.....
today asyou keep saying its the next one that very moment that face of his that smileeeeeeeee of his that echo of his voice makes you smile the biggest and unnoticeable smile that dosnt goes unnoticed by your mom.....
and the way she says you smile the most beautiful smile when you are lost in your own mind.... that it actually makes her wonder who or what jsut crossed your mind....
is when you also realize this beautiful fact there is happiness like the ultimate one and then the rest are only the "versions" of happiness...
like you know there is that ultimate one like no other and the rest that you live through the day are just the versions of the term happiness...
to you it will always be Him...
no wonder makes you happy from the inside out like nothing else possibly could......
this lil world of Him that you live through, hidden away and inside of you !!
this feeeeeeeling now as you write and feel this misseeeing growing waaaaaaaaaaaaay worse than you already were.....
the waaaaaaaaaaaaay writing him makes it this beauuuuutifully worse than it already was !!
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