there are moments that you live him in dreams and then there are moments like these...
yesterday there was this him in the most beautiful way.....
you remember sleeping to the sound of his music playing real slow as you were that dead tired with all that work and stuff through the day.....
its this thing charlie new found happy place......
through the day the load of work meets and stuff and then there is that two long hours of traffucked journey back home.... which now is your happy place....
as its almost pretty late in the nites now no matter how early you start off to come back home.....
this time late nites drive home and you lost in his music looking out of the window living him from back then those late nite winter evening drives back home either from opera or simply anywhere......
the chill in the air now not as cold as back then but still cold for you.....
the winter chill that you can smell in the air, mostly put the windows down smell the chill in the air and live him from back then.....
watching him losing yourelf in him a lil more as you watch the street lights in intervals fall on his face as he looks at you beech beech mein whilst driving and those smileeeeeeeeeeeeeees those stares of his smtimes..... talking to you in a million more words just by those smileeeees of his smtimes teling you how bad he wanted you to be a lil longer with him a lil closer to him.... as mostly on the way back home just a lil closer to your apartment and you would move a lil away from him a lil off his shoulder and get a better view of him... to just live him for those few mins till you reach home.....
to make the most of those few mins to just live him every lil detail of his every blink of his eye every smile stare of his.... to just live him charlie was your life !!!!!!!!!!
like the start and end of it pretty much !!!!!!!!
it was that feeeeeeeeeeeeeel like you know youll see him again tomo or maybe that nite istelf when he again comes over to see you.... but that love passion madness to just live him even for those few mins without touching being too close and to just move a lil away and just live him...... and the waaaaaaaay he would jus know any moment now you will soon be spending those few mins losing yourself in him.... and as you move a lil away from his shoulder and look at him and that one change in that smileeeee of his to a nod to that nod !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i tell you the zillion things you miss bout him.....
the zillionnnnnnnnnnnnnn ways you miss him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
exactly whyyyyyy you stay away from writing aaj kal !!!!!!
struggling to learn to change yourself !!!!!!!!!
sttttrrrrrrrruuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggglllllllllliiing literally !!!!!!!!!
this state of mind right now it lands you in !!!!!!!!!!!
this exact state of you !!!!!!!
yesterday there was this him in the most beautiful way.....
you remember sleeping to the sound of his music playing real slow as you were that dead tired with all that work and stuff through the day.....
its this thing charlie new found happy place......
through the day the load of work meets and stuff and then there is that two long hours of traffucked journey back home.... which now is your happy place....
as its almost pretty late in the nites now no matter how early you start off to come back home.....
this time late nites drive home and you lost in his music looking out of the window living him from back then those late nite winter evening drives back home either from opera or simply anywhere......
the chill in the air now not as cold as back then but still cold for you.....
the winter chill that you can smell in the air, mostly put the windows down smell the chill in the air and live him from back then.....
watching him losing yourelf in him a lil more as you watch the street lights in intervals fall on his face as he looks at you beech beech mein whilst driving and those smileeeeeeeeeeeeeees those stares of his smtimes..... talking to you in a million more words just by those smileeeees of his smtimes teling you how bad he wanted you to be a lil longer with him a lil closer to him.... as mostly on the way back home just a lil closer to your apartment and you would move a lil away from him a lil off his shoulder and get a better view of him... to just live him for those few mins till you reach home.....
to make the most of those few mins to just live him every lil detail of his every blink of his eye every smile stare of his.... to just live him charlie was your life !!!!!!!!!!
like the start and end of it pretty much !!!!!!!!
it was that feeeeeeeeeeeeeel like you know youll see him again tomo or maybe that nite istelf when he again comes over to see you.... but that love passion madness to just live him even for those few mins without touching being too close and to just move a lil away and just live him...... and the waaaaaaaay he would jus know any moment now you will soon be spending those few mins losing yourself in him.... and as you move a lil away from his shoulder and look at him and that one change in that smileeeee of his to a nod to that nod !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i tell you the zillion things you miss bout him.....
the zillionnnnnnnnnnnnnn ways you miss him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
exactly whyyyyyy you stay away from writing aaj kal !!!!!!
struggling to learn to change yourself !!!!!!!!!
sttttrrrrrrrruuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggglllllllllliiing literally !!!!!!!!!
this state of mind right now it lands you in !!!!!!!!!!!
this exact state of you !!!!!!!
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