Moments!!!!

 Just bout done with the ice team and bout to leave and there was this couple on the opp side of the road your window side auto waiting the guy with the backpack and luggage and the girl standing and just before betting in the auto she holds the guy one more time and the guy leaves…..

That one straight flash back to him leaving for Bangalore like the visual the moemnt holds you that you ask the driver to stay for a bit and not move the car as yet…

Close your eyes standing in his lawn him just bout close to sonis car as he was taking that with driver along for dropping at the station…and you standing with his family everybody else waving and saying stuff there he was just standing there looking at you looking you in the eye and that one smile on him the waaaaay he just stays that way chachi asking him what it was bout his sister asking him and he just nods away and you alone know what and how he was feeling away in that moment…like you remember so well having goosebumps all over just by the way he smiles and nods away just before getting into the car…

In his sisters room and you just couldn’t hold it in and cry out like literally cry it out and she holds you tries to calm you down saying he will be back soon it’s just weeks 1-2 week something’s you write and this feeeeeeeel!!!!

And you just hold her and cry out and the way she says she didn’t know you loved him so much like you already had fever on by then…like something that big part of you suddenly missing in you like that strongly and before it heads your mind to make sense of it your body already couldn’t…

Yesterday to see that couple to relive that stare with him to see him visually love you that much like you could just see it all over on him to that feeeeeel of sharing that lil wordless conversation wit him which just you and him get it…

From there ro that need to just see THE Rani gunj baba temple also the start of it all…

As you be there that one feeeeeeel every single time even from far his car right there him standing out for you you wearing chappals coming out of the temple and stand there to see him him in his white shirt his legs crossed as he used to waiting for you and the way he looks at you you stop right there not a step the waaaaaay his stare used to hold all of you away like you can’t move blink nothing at all like being held by him even without touching a bit……

To finally getting in and the vibudhi moemnt his forehead his hair his eyes closed him holding his hair back and you just stay that way living adoooooring him away that beauuuuuty of faaaaaalllllllling in love with all of him every bit of him and still not yet knowing it away!!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!